Several years ago, this is the conclusion I reached as well which made me a lot less dogmatic about my opposition to the idea of libertarian free will...or the ability of man to originate a thought, intent and thus make free choices in a similar manner that God would make choices.
Calvinists typically condemn libertarians for their appeal to mystery, because we don't have a deterministic explanation as to how or why every free choice is made, but as this thread proves we are not the only ones who must appeal to mystery in this regard. The ORIGIN of a thought, desire or intent is at the very heart of this debate and both camps, whether they admit it or not, must appeal to mystery.
Personally I'd rather err on the side of avoiding impugning God's holiness by avoiding any appearance of even suggesting that God might author/originate sin. I believe you can do that without lessoning your view of divine sovereignty.
Two things:
1. This ignores the facts of Scripture. Yes, EVERY subject when traced far enough must be abandoned to mystery. We can only know so much about ANY subject.
But the facts of the Scripture are clear.
God willed, planned and ordained the temporal existence of evil to serve holy ultimate eternal purposes.
I have appealed to numerous Scriptures that make this clear. There are others.
2. If you err, as I believe the Scripture plainly teaches you do, it is not on the side of the holiness of God because it is impossible to impugn the character of God when you trust that his motives are pure. God can will for evil to exist- he does, Scripture is clear- and will it for the highest and holiest of purposes: his ultimate eternal glory and our eternal good and happiness. It is not possible for this position to impugn God's holiness.
Furthermore, you err on the side of impugning his Sovereign Power and Wisdom.
Millions, yea billions, of things happen every day that God wishes would not happen- things he did not plan for nor does he truly control- if God did not will for evil to exist.
I CANNOT, a thousand times CANNOT, abide such an idea!
God bless!
It has been enjoyable. I am glad to continue this any time.