I never said you have choice. But here is another analogy since everyone is throwing them out. The fire chief with some of his firemen enters a burning building & stands there and yells "If anyone hears me yell out & my men will come by & save you." Of course he is totally ignoring the fact that these people are out cold & dieing of smoke inhalation.
An unconscious person lacks ability and cannot make a choice.
It is the Calvinist belief that your unable to cry out to make a decision for Christ till your revived since your so sinful that you just cant make the decision. Once revived & pulled from the flames you realize who your saviors are.
I appreciate your honesty, at least you are consistent with your doctrine. I can respect that even if I disagree with it. You confirm that men are "unable" to cry out to Christ. They lack ability so they cannot make a choice.
Others argue that because an option is simply offered to someone that they have a choice. This is false. A blind man cannot choose to see even if you make that offer to him.
Commentary from CHS:
Regarding Total Depravity and Irresistible Grace:
When you say, "Can God make me become a Christian?" I tell you yes, for herein rests the power of the gospel. It does not ask your consent; but it gets it. It does not say, "Will you have it?" but it makes you willing in the day of God's power....The gospel wants not your consent, it gets it. It knocks the enmity out of your heart. You say, I do not want to be saved; Christ says you shall be. He makes our will turn round, and then you cry,"'Lord save, or I perish!"
I disagree with Spurgeon here, and I believe I have seen sermons where he contradicts himself. He was very inconsistent in his doctrine.
Rev 3:20 Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me.
Jesus does not force himself on anyone, he is not a criminal who breaks down your door. He patiently knocks and makes known to you that he wants to come in and sup with you. But we must freely and willingly open the door and invite him in. He has promised that to whoever opens the door, he will come in.
Spurgeon was wrong in this sermon.