I have to say that your posts saddens me as a woman of God. God has used women so richly in His kingdom and you are a vessel that is silent and preventing God from using you to bless other believers in Christ. I cannot imagine not speaking to people at church or sharing my burdens or singing to the Lord in a joyful song. Wearing bland colors when God has so richly blessed us with vibrant color and wonderful sounds and wonderful blessings.
It must be a very sad life, I'd think. I know in the last few months, God has used me in so many ways and it's humbling and blessing at the same time to see how He's used me to speak to others. Some of the situations were counseling a mom who was struggling with her calling in life, a wife who was having a hard time with an unbelieving husband, my husband who is struggling in ministry, my daughter who had a most unbelievable health problem that even gave testimony to the doctors of God's faithfulness and a couple who had to make the most difficult decision and stand against their family to disconnect their son from life support. I KNOW God used me and grew me and refined me through this process and did the same to others through our connection. How would I ever want to miss that??
