Thank You for Helping to Free Me from the Enemy

I need to thank this board in a public way for freeing me from the Enemy. In part, because of this board I have seen a breakthrough against a number of my besetting sins, an abandonment of Pentecostalism and Charismaticism which I now know are no better than the occult, and I have seen the defeat of a demonic assault against me that has lasted for years and years and years.

I have decided to explain how this happened through the testimony I have prepared for and started sharing with unbelievers with some commentary afterwards. If you could comment on this testimony to improve it that would be greatly appreciated. I do not mention this forum, but this is where I began to question whether my so called prophecy was of God or the evil one with me deciding in the end that it had to be the evil one. Perhaps, I do need to mention this forum for setting me straight though, and perhaps I need to mention that I believed this to be Pentecostal/Charismatic prophecy for years.

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I have schizoaffective bipolar type disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, panic attacks, extra-pyramidal symptoms (EPS), and a verbal tic disorder. I also have migraine headaches with aura and seizures, though my neurologist thinks they are likely pseudo-seizures.

I have had very unusual voices since the onset of psychosis years ago in that my voices speak through me at times as if I am a medium channeling a spirit and then my voices go onto hold a conversation with me out loud. My therapist and I discussed this and he believed that this was an aspect of my mental illness and psychoses. His conclusion was that my brain may be smart enough to be generating very smart voices that can converse with me, claim to be demons, know what words to say to wound me, act purposefully in conversation, adapt inside a conversation just like a person, and such. However, it still is just my one brain and I. He believed the reason my voices may come out as if I am a medium channeling a spirit is that I have a verbal tic disorder.

However, I did say I wanted to see if someone could try and cast out a demon. He said it couldn't hurt just as long as I knew that if it didn't work, then that meant it was mental illness. I then discussed what was happening with my pastor in an email and he decided to come over the next day. He walked around my home and prayed over my house and I that we be delivered from demonic attack in Jesus Christ's name. I had two or three likely pseudo-seizures during the prayer and I heard a voice say "I hate you" very clearly, which I told my pastor. He left and I went into my room to journal, as he pointed out this all began when I had embraced certain sinful attitudes and desires. I repented of these attitudes and desires and just as I did so I started to convulse and shriek but surprisingly there was no pain. Then the voice that had talked to me the most like a spirit would through a medium was gone and has not returned since.

Now mind you I still have more voices talking through me and at least two more claim to be demons, so my pastor will continue to pray over me and in Jesus' name I know any spiritual aspect of my disorder will be dealt with. But of course, I am mentally ill and badly in need of treatment. It is only that some aspects of what I am going through seems to be the result of demonic attack.

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Now, the spirit cast out was the one giving me false prophecy for many, many years ever since I was an atheist. As an atheist I had received vivid dreams that perfectly predicted future events in my own life from my own first person perspective which I thought made me psychic, and as an imposter Christian I was able to enter a kind of prayer trance and guess every card right on a precognition test, and even win a Risk game by asking the spirit of false prophecy what to do next. I thought this was Pentecostal or Charismatic prophecy. The bible talks of false prophetic spirits like this in Acts 16:16-18.

Now, according to 1 John 4:2-3 this spirit I cozied up to for years for my "psychic precognition" as an atheist and later "prophecy" as an imposter Christian was the spirit of the antichrist.

Now, the evil spirit remaining, which I now believe to only be one demon, will hopefully be dealt with on the day I see my pastor next, which is this Wednesday. I have to share on sexual sin as an imposter Christian that I hid from my church, but I can't go into anything on this public forum..

As for my salvation, I worry that I may not have the Holy Spirit yet, but at the same time I am certain I pass the Roman 10:9 tests, and I can definitely tell you I am a much changed man after coming to faith in Jesus' resurrection eight and a half months ago.

Of course, this is a discussion board and comments are welcome. Thank you!

Our Father in Heaven Bless You and Your Loved Ones Abundantly in Jesus' Name,
Steven Yeadon

 

I am only replying to this thread because I have a shocking development after a second prayer for deliverance was prayed over me by my pastor. I also confessed and repented of a large amount of my sin, and I also prayed for deliverance for myself.

I have lost another one of my so called voices that could hold a conversation and speak through me like a medium channels a spirit. This happened the night after being prayed over by my pastor for deliverance again. I went home to journal and confess my sins to someone else and a wild series of events happened with the demonic seeming voice now gone.

This voice had appeared just after the last one disappeared, which happened soon after being prayed over by my pastor for deliverance for the first time. The voice that has disappeared has shocked me as my auditory hallucinations are now fairly infrequent compared to before. Instead of a steady stream of hallucinations I had to work around, I now sit here in silence with the fan and air conditioner running. I cannot believe it and I feel so eerie and weep for joy because of the long periods of silence I hear now.

The voice that disappeared was what mental health calls a sexual voice that has been hounding me lately and talked through me like a medium channels a spirit. It said it was a demon, that it was all the sexual voices I have ever had and impersonated some of them perfectly for what seemed like fun to the voice, and then told me it was the voice that claimed to be the Holy Spirit that told me when and when not to pursue relationships with women. It was a very rageful voice last night, saying that its time was short.

Now the bad news is that I still have voices talking through me like a medium channels a spirit, and I suspect them to be spiritual not physical phenomena, though I could be wrong in some places as I am mentally ill with a verbal tic disorder. The current voices mainly just cut in every once in a while with a crude or unholy joke or tell me something aimed at tearing me down. Although, another voice has appeared that feels so oppressive, sometimes beyond all belief to hear speak. This voice claims to be the Magician over the Earth pulling all its strings like a puppeteer does with a marionette. The voice only speaks occasionally and claims to be a demon that can give counterfeit signs and wonders. The voice also offers a variety of destinies related to receiving counterfeit signs and wonders promising enormous rewards in this life beyond all imagination if I accept hell in the next. Of course Hebrews 11:1 tells me I should have sureness of my hope in going to heaven. I have actually heard this voice before in my psychotic episodes, but never outside of them till now.

However, this experience has made me consider another aspect of my former charismatic influence that needs serious research and discussion: my former obsession with the miraculous and my desire to be a miraculous evangelist, a new type of signs and wonders evangelism. I had allowed two gifts that seem Charismatic to be still active in the church after abandoning prophecy and tongues: healing as well as miracles for the purpose of evangelism. I figured that they must come from the Holy Spirit given they attack and divide Satan's Kingdom at all (Mark 3:25-26), and of course I did not want to blaspheme the Holy Spirit and His work. However, after talking this subject of healers and miracle workers in the modern church out with one of my deacons, it sounds like I may be led astray again by the Pentecostal/Charismatic movement. I am now reticent of the verse Matthew 7:22-23 in that these people may have gifts but be completely outside the bounds of what the Spirit wants them to do.

But to be perfectly honest and even vulnerable: I wonder if a serious demonic attack makes me a non-Christian and I wonder as to whether I have the Holy Spirit. This means I wonder if I will go to heaven when I die even though I pass the Romans 10:9 qualifications for really Believing in Jesus. To be honest I don't consider it libel or slander at all to discuss whether I am saved or not if anyone wants to talk on the subject. I assume I must be saved because I confess Jesus is my Lord Whom I must obey with my life, and I just believe deep down that Jesus definitely got out of that grave thousands of miles to the east of me because God raised Him from the dead.

 

Thank you so much for your concern Yeshua1.

I am in a good baptist church now and have been baptized after realizing 9 months ago that Hebrews 11:1 says that faith, and therefore saving faith, is a kind of blind trust. Before I had been a so called moderate and had thought that as long as there is a solid case for Christ I will be Christian. That of course was wicked folly and I am now a Believer in Jesus Christ on faith as described in Hebrews 11:1.

I do practice prayer and bible study, but of course I could always use more hunger for His Word and for time with Him in prayer. I am committed to two small groups right now at my church as well. I'm now obeying the Word and making every effort to obey God in faith knowing I am spiritually poor (Hebrews 4:11, Luke 13:24, Matthew 5:3).

 

Oh, I have good news to report. I am now a classical cessationist. I still need to sort out my theology of healing and miracles a bit, but I was unable to find any charismatic ministers able to perform signs and wonders other than some claims in back rooms, and I now know that there seems to be no charismatic faith healers in history such as Oral Roberts who have sound doctrine.

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I already feel so much more at peace and normal already.

 

Nice article, it is very informative and has helped me a lot. However, I do have one biblical correction I have to make: The Enemy can know the future so the ability to predict the future can come from pagan or false prophets. This is clearly shown in Acts 16:16-18. Verse 16 alone really proves it, but the bible goes further to show that the Enemy can even point us towards salvation if it is for his own ends, which may be just scraching the surface of the issue.

If we look at the list of gifts listed in Eph 4:11, we see that the first gift is Apostles. I believe that there are no Apostles today. If you agree with me then you are a Cessationist because you agree that at least one of the gifts has now ceased. The qualifications for an apostle are listed in Acts 1:22- he must have seen the risen Christ.
-Martin Marprelate

I wish I had read that a long time ago. The logic is of course sound and destroys the idea that all the gifts but that one continued on. A belief I have held to for well over a year.

Having established the principle of Cessationism- that not all the gifts were intended to be permanent- we can move on to the second gift, that of prophets. We need to consider Ephesians 2:20 where Paul describes Christians as, ‘having been built on the foundation of the apostles and prophets….’ How many foundations does a building need? Surely only one? And when is the foundation put in place? At the very beginning, of course. The foundation of God’s Church is in place, in the doctrine of the apostles and prophets found in the Holy Scriptures. We need no prophets now, for we have ‘The prophetic word confirmed’ (2 Peter 1:19) in the Bible.
-Martin Marprelate

I love the logic here, and it was that verse on the foundation of the church being the apostles and prophets that convicted me for a long time that I was doing the wrong thing.

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Also thank you very much for your concern.

 

Thank you for your concern!

No its not substance abuse. I do have a mental illness, but it really seems to be something supernatural to me in a great variety of ways. I was even told to find a priest by the only serious responder on a psychology message board when I listed my symptoms. Aside from the vast details I provided on my condition, on Tuesday I have to tell my therapist this:

Two deliverance prayers by my pastor and repentance after each one from a great variety of sins has reduced my voices over 90% with no adjustment to my antipsychotic medications.

 

That last post has me thinking about how to put this to my therapist in an easy way:

1. A couple of hours after being prayed over by my pastor for deliverance, I had a set of painless shrieks come out of me and then almost all the voices that had claimed to give me prophecy were gone. This happened while I was journaling a confession I would give to others along with repenting from a number of sins.

2. Several hours after being prayed over by my pastor for deliverance, I had a set of seizures (I am diagnosed seizures but not epilepsy) and again a set of painless shrieks come out of me. I felt led to pray for my own deliverance shortly after this happened, and immediately after this prayer my voices went down over 90%. These seizures and shrieks happened after I had journaled a confession I would give to others, and after I repented from a number of sins.

Wow what a testimony.

I want to keep going with deliverance prayers and repentance and confessions to see what's next, as I believe my mental illness may be partially a demonic attack on myself. It also teaches me a methodology I should use for the future if the Enemy ever wants me in his snare of sin again.

 

I get it! From any vantage point that makes sense from where I'm sitting its a miracle from God happening right now!

The only natural explanation is that my new migraine medication, which treats headache pain, that I started on about a week before deliverance prayer #1, eliminated a whole type of voice we had earnestly prayed would go away. However, I was told to stop this medication due to side effects and the voices offering prophecy voices never returned!

Again the only natural explanation for losing so many voices the second time, down over 90%, is that I was started on another migraine medication that also helps stop bipolar people from having mood swings.

Wow what a testimony already!