I early-voted yesterday morning for Trump and now I wholeheartedly regret it.

This election cycle has done a number on me. Since July, I have been ripped apart inside knowing that there is not a godly candidate at ALL! Not even a decent one. Or a truthful one.

I would lean towards voting for Trump and then he would open his mouth. I went back and forth with this as I said since July.

Harris was out as a choice for me. No way. No how.

I had made my decision to write-in someone and was at peace with that after I saw Trump's Truth Social account from back in August where he joked about Harris and Hillary and "blowj*bs". He is so gross and juvenile and NOT an adult.

Then I saw where Harris mocked Christians who came to her rally and told them that they were at the wrong rally. and how everyone there cheered with her and clapped against the Christians.

I said to myself. She CANNOT go in. What if my vote for someone else makes her slip in by a hair?

So Monday morning at 8:45 am, I cast my vote for Trump.

I got home just in time to see his little trolling of Harris by putting on a fake and scripted McDonald's show.

AND I saw his comment about the late Arnold Palmer and how large and impressive his GENITALS were. And what a physical specimen of a MAN he was.

Arnold Palmer's children are very upset. As they should be.

What actual and real man in his right mind SAYS something like that publicly? What KIND of man? An unhinged one.

America is under the judgment of God. I have believed that for years. And we are getting what we wholeheartedly deserve.

Trump got my vote yesterday. But he will never have my support or respect. The only thing he will get from me is my prayers. He has had that and now that will be all.

I feel unclean for voting for him and am in turmoil all over again. I should have done what I first decided and not voted.

Pray for me to move on. I've had headaches for the past few weeks and am not eating properly nor getting proper rest over this.

Pray for me. I have no one to tell in person or private because all my people believe him to be the most wonderful candidate. That has contributed to my feelings of despair.

I need to find a new hobby or task or direction and just let this go.

 

I completely understand not voting for her.

How do you deal with his childish and vulgar and un-Presidential nature? Do you just call him the lesser of two evils?

Do you just overlook his conversations about Arnold Palmer's private area and much more? How do you move on from these things?

 

I just can't justify Trump's unhinged and foul mouth by claiming that ....well, we all sin.....so it just doesn't matter what he says or does. Just let it go.

Yes, all have sinned and come short of the glory of God. That's a Biblical truth.

Another Biblical truth is that we are not to flaunt our sin. Isaiah 3:8-10, speaking of Judah, says that showing off your sins likens you to Sodom..

I wasn't raised with or by men like Trump. Never worked with them or for them. None. Were they sinners? Yes. Am I a sinner? Yes.

I did go to college 40-45 years ago with some of the nastiest BOYS you'd ever want to meet. I learned things I didn't want to know. I learned things I didn't know existed. I rolled my eyes so much at them that I swear I could see my own brain.

But you know what happened by the time we started graduate school? They either [1] got saved or [2] just flat out GREW UP! When I talk to them and their wives and families today - it's a joy. I haven't rolled my eyes in years. I'm not saying they are not sinners. But they don't get their kicks anymore out of flaunting sin and showing off immoral behavior.

Trump hasn't grown up. At this stage in the game, he never will.

My vote has been cast. I believe he will be president. I believe he will make a better one than Harris/Walz.

I'm just not going to give the man a free pass to be juvenile, vulgar, and lewd just because he's a Republican and/or just because I don't want Kamala Harris as president.

He gets no free pass from me nor should be get one from anybody.

 

I used to draw and paint a little 30+ years ago. I may take that up again.