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Due to my own safety concerns for the time present I have to leave a lot of details out of this post, but i'll do my best to write the most important information. So I'm a middle aged straight white male, my family is originally catholic, I left my religion at a young age mainly due to family issues resulting in my parents divorcing at a young age, no importance from family to be religious or understand it, at a young age i decided i wasn't comfortable with the nuns at Sunday school and stopped going. After a while I began studying Islam and became a Muslim for many years, this includes me studying that religion in depth. After a while the issues I started to have with Islamic texts became ever so frequent, it took me to a total fallout with religion and God, I eventually got to the point of being a nihilist atheist with no purpose to life, I also could not and can not exactly tell people my story, because one thing I realized about Islam is once you join, you join for life, literally. There is a death penalty for leaving/disbelieving in it.
Anyways, I have spent the later part of 4 years watching numerous documentaries, lectures, courses, discussions on everything from religion, to science, to magic and any and every other subject. Eventually i was stuck in the intellectual dark web Listening to Joe Rogan, then watching Jordan Peterson, while simultaneously testing the waters of psychedelic drugs, with lots of time and research and one can say person revelation, I came to similar conclusions (or the lack thereof without proper thought first) about Jesus, The Logos, The Bible, etc. Meaning I do wholeheartedly believe in Jesus Christ as the lord and savior. I knew this thing to be true deep down inside and have no doubt about that.
I'm not sure where to start because on one hand I can understand the sociological and political advantage of the Catholic church, and since Catholics consider Dr. Peterson a Catholic even without saying so, it seemed like the best choice, especially considering that's where my roots go back to, but I have a problem with the Pedophile nature of the situation faced in the church and the lack of action to correct it etc. So, then I thought let me see what a Baptist is because I'm an American, and when I googled the difference between Catholicism and Baptist I couldn't find much of a difference, and thought it seemed like a good place to start.
I guess the question I have is, how does one decide on which denomination or group? Is it important?
Second question would be, especially because i love studying and would love to continue my education in relation to something related to Christianity, is there any recommended courses I can take? Are their any recommended Majors I should look into? Are there any types of scholarships I can find?
Considering my current state of safety I can say for now my privacy situation can't change, but eventually I need to break free of these bonds and use my experience and knowledge to help guide the young who may be in the situation I was in and how to guide them to the right way without wasting their lives, and potentially living in fear. So, wish me the best.
I guess any suggestions, words of advice, help, prayer, would be very helpful.
Thank you in advance.
Anyways, I have spent the later part of 4 years watching numerous documentaries, lectures, courses, discussions on everything from religion, to science, to magic and any and every other subject. Eventually i was stuck in the intellectual dark web Listening to Joe Rogan, then watching Jordan Peterson, while simultaneously testing the waters of psychedelic drugs, with lots of time and research and one can say person revelation, I came to similar conclusions (or the lack thereof without proper thought first) about Jesus, The Logos, The Bible, etc. Meaning I do wholeheartedly believe in Jesus Christ as the lord and savior. I knew this thing to be true deep down inside and have no doubt about that.
I'm not sure where to start because on one hand I can understand the sociological and political advantage of the Catholic church, and since Catholics consider Dr. Peterson a Catholic even without saying so, it seemed like the best choice, especially considering that's where my roots go back to, but I have a problem with the Pedophile nature of the situation faced in the church and the lack of action to correct it etc. So, then I thought let me see what a Baptist is because I'm an American, and when I googled the difference between Catholicism and Baptist I couldn't find much of a difference, and thought it seemed like a good place to start.
I guess the question I have is, how does one decide on which denomination or group? Is it important?
Second question would be, especially because i love studying and would love to continue my education in relation to something related to Christianity, is there any recommended courses I can take? Are their any recommended Majors I should look into? Are there any types of scholarships I can find?
Considering my current state of safety I can say for now my privacy situation can't change, but eventually I need to break free of these bonds and use my experience and knowledge to help guide the young who may be in the situation I was in and how to guide them to the right way without wasting their lives, and potentially living in fear. So, wish me the best.
I guess any suggestions, words of advice, help, prayer, would be very helpful.
Thank you in advance.
