Fear of death and anxiety

[DanielS01]

Hi brothers and sisters!
I have a problem in my life that I really want to share and I hope I will get advice on it because I really need some help.
I will start by giving you a little bit of background about myself so you can understand better my situation: I am a student, I am 19 years old and I've been baptized the last year (2020) in summer .
My problem is that I did came with a sincere heart to god but I have to say that I am not really sure if I was born again or if I am a true christian and this concers me a lot.
I was addicted to watching adult movies and sadfully even after baptize I still live like that . Many times I just put god appart and just mind my own buissnies wich is not good.
I had a habbit where I was praying 20mins in the morning and now I don't have that much of a habbit.
Ok, and now let's get to the root of the problem: now due to stress in university it happens that I have panick attack and what is interesting and this what I wanted to talk about in the first place is that having a panick attack feels a little bit like dying : you suddenly feel that you can't breath , your have weird sensation like your heart is stopping and just like you leave your body and just die, and my big problem is that I think that as a christian we should not fear death, but I have to say that in that moments I start to yield and say that I am dying and I am so terrified because I know that if I die I will go to eternal punishment and I try to make somehow to be heared so even if something is happeping with me there is someone who can resusicate me or something like that.
But I realize that I am truly afraid of death. The problem that I want to address here is not how to solve panick attacks because I will get medication but the problem is HOW DO I CHANGE MY LIFE?
What should I do to live a holy life, and to be so close to god that even a panick attacks came or even if it is not a panick attack and my life has came to end I can be sure that I am in god's hands and I am saved.
I think that I would help a lot for me to really be sure that God doesen't hate me, and that before God I am clean and even if the worst thing happens to me( wich is death for me) I am not panicked but I am calm .
Because death scarifies me, maybe I will get treatement but one day as all here I will have to face it too.
And I want to live a life in such a way that even if my death time came I am calm.
The worst part of panick attacks is feeling like slowly you are leaving this body , even if is just a sesation the real thing scares me: the fear of dying. And I think that as a true chrisitian you should not be afraid of death, but I am so terrified and I don't know how to solve it.
Please pray for me , and if you have any suggestions about what should I do to change my life and how should I really get prepared for dying so even if die or even if it's just a panick attack I can feel safe and I can be sure that I am forgiven.The tought that after death I will go to hell because I realise that my life is not that way god's wants me to live it.
Please pray for me that trough this panick attacks , even if they do not provoke death but I can be truly become ready for dying.
I have to say that I live in such a way like I have to live 100 years or more.
In the end if there are any suggestions or habbits that I can implement or something that I can actively do to solve this issue I would love to hear them.
I currently just have one habbit:reading the bible every single day but I feel I need a change.
I have to apologize for my english , is not my native language.
God bless you all!!

 

[Van]

Your life seems to be focused on you and what Christ can do for you. Try focusing on what you can do for Christ. Our assurance of salvation comes from considering our core attitudes and attributes and whether we see the fruit of the Spirit. If you love Christ, you will strive to keep His commandments, to carry out His ministry.

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,
gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law. (Galatians 5:22-23)

 

[SGO]

Thank you, Daniel, for having the courage to write about what is bothering you.

God loves you in spite of all these things.

But God commendeth his love toward us,
in that,
while we were yet sinners,
Christ died for us.
Romans 5:8

Everyone has a battle inside.

You, as a new Christian, are under attack from spiritual forces.
Any sins you commit can be confessed and you will be washed.

Every Christian in the whole world relies on this verse and the TRUTH of it:

If we confess our sins,
he is faithful and just
to forgive us our sins,
and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
1 John 1:9

Cleanse from all.
Did you read that?
You may not feel that to be the case, especially with repeated behavior,
but it is the word and promise of God.
So, like me, you may have to confess many many many times a day.
God will teach you ways to deal with your issues.

How do I change my life?

Read the bible, especially the New Testament. Do not worry if you don't understand something.
God will give you what He wants you to know at the right time.

Read the bible. Read the bible. Read the bible.

So then faith cometh by hearing,
and hearing by the word of God.
Romans 10:17

Find a church where they believe the bible is the word of God and where it is preached as such.

Read the bible, which is the word of God.

 

[tyndale1946]

Thank you, Daniel, for having the courage to write about what is bothering you.

God loves you in spite of all these things.

But God commendeth his love toward us,
in that,
while we were yet sinners,
Christ died for us.
Romans 5:8

Everyone has a battle inside.

You, as a new Christian, are under attack from spiritual forces.
Any sins you commit can be confessed and you will be washed.

Every Christian in the whole world relies on this verse and the TRUTH of it:

If we confess our sins,
he is faithful and just
to forgive us our sins,
and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
1 John 1:9

Cleanse from all.
Did you read that?
You may not feel that to be the case, especially with repeated behavior,
but it is the word and promise of God.
So, like me, you may have to confess many many many times a day.
God will teach you ways to deal with your issues.

How do I change my life?

Read the bible, especially the New Testament. Do not worry if you don't understand something.
God will give you what He wants you to know at the right time.

Read the bible. Read the bible. Read the bible.

So then faith cometh by hearing,
and hearing by the word of God.
Romans 10:17

Find a church where they believe the bible is the word of God and where it is preached as such.

Read the bible, which is the word of God.

Daniel... I also agree read the Bible but I also would like you to consider something else... I grew up in church and I always remember those saints in my life and I can look back in my life and thank God for them... They were my mentors and helped me out when things got rough and there is nothing that can compare to a kind brother or sister, to help you along... They too have been where you are now... Now I am now, where they were then... Do not go this alone because there is plenty of help out there, just ask the Lord for guidance and direction... Find someone who you can share your feelings with and if they become to judgmental, find someone else... And Daniel just some kind brotherly advise, ask yourself this, if the Lord did not care for you, why would he even bother?... Brother Glen

Btw... Daniel... Welcome to the Baptist Board!

 

[xlsdraw]

The most miserable person is the Christian that is not fully committed to the Lord. And yes anxiety is one of the tools that the Lord uses to keep us from enjoying our waywardness. The root of being totally committed to the Lord is having a thorough understanding of what the Lord: has done, is doing, and will do. My very long struggle with anxiety ended when I finally committed to obedience to the Lord.

 

[just-want-peace]

[QUOTE="xlsdraw, post: 2681533, member: 13387"]The most miserable person is the Christian that is not fully committed to the Lord. And yes anxiety is one of the tools that the Lord uses to keep us from enjoying our waywardness. The root of being totally committed to the Lord is having a thorough understanding of what the Lord: has done, is doing, and will do. My very long struggle with anxiety ended when I finally committed to obedience to the Lord.[/QUOTE]

Been there, done that!!
Up until I was about 40-45 (now 84) I fit this category to a "T". I describe my life during this period as : "I was too good to enjoy being bad, and too bad to enjoy being good"!
Still a long way from where I wanna be, but at least I ain't where I was.

 

[Alex2165]

Hi Daniel.

You wrote:
"I think that as a christian we should not fear death," and "I think that as a true chrisitian you should not be afraid of death."

This is not true Daniel, every person in the world afraid of death, this is a normal feeling, only fool or mentally disable person does nor fear death, but every normal person does.

In your case you have anxiety of death that unleashed panic attacks, this is purely psychological problem. Again, it is happen to many people and you are not alone.

How to combat this anxiety?

You wrote: "to solve panick attacks because I will get medication."

I would not recommend using any medications at all. I remember what medications did to my father. My father was a very hyperactive man, very loud, stubborn, and sometime very unruly. So doctors put him on medicine that suppose to calm him down, and it deed, to the point that after a year he became completely different man with severe dementia. His memory before medication was excellent, but after he lost it and became completely emotionless.

Medications cause much worse symptoms and illnesses that the health condition they try to manage. Medicine causes irreversible damage, particularly physiological medicine which can turn relatively healthy person to a vegetable in the matter of months.

In order to release or subside the fear of death you must understand one very important thing that death is not the end of life, because the life of a human being not in the physical body but in the soul of a person, soul is life, and while physical body dies, the soul continue to live, according to Biblical Scriptures.

GOD is not the GOD of dead but of living, and in His Statements He constantly mentioned Abraham, Isaac, Jacob, Moses, and David, because in GOD they are all alive.

When your panic attack comes to you, try to turn your mind to something else, preoccupy yourself with some kind work, make yourself busy with something in order to turn your mind from your problem to the work you intend to do. It always works well for me but under different circumstances.

Try to socialize more with other students and try to find among them someone who is also believer in Christ. The more you will socialize with people the less will be the time for your anxiety to torment you.

And of course, reading the Bible should give you great relief (does it for me), especially the places that related to your sufferings.

Do not try to do everything at once, but organize yourself and do it step by step. dedicated portion of your time for your studies, for socializing, and of course for the Bible.

Good luck.

 

[evenifigoalone]

Just want to let you know you aren't alone, I've had this struggle in the past too.