Gonna take a break for awhile....

I'm tired. I know, I know ... you all are tired, too.

I had a lousy summer with the cancer, but worst of all my mother's health. I didn't tell you all much about that, but she is still not completely well. She's been diagnosed with a severe lung disorder and although it's not going to kill her, it has taken a toll on her health and our family.

We were told initially - about the time I was undergoing the biopsy - that she was going to die - soon. My life last June thinking that my mother was going to die and wondering if I had cancer and not being about to talk to people about it because I needed to talk to her first was not fun. July was a blur of hospitals for the both of us and I don't know what happened to August.

Anyway, I'm now realizing that I should have taken the first few weeks of school off. My doctor advised it, but left it up to me. Thinking that I am Wonderwoman .... I didn't take a rest and now it's too late.

Now, I'm tired all time.

And grouchy.

I find myself in the last few weeks coming to the Baptistboard and getting mad. Whether I post or not.

It's not good for me right now and not good for you all.

If you've been around long enough - I've been here since 2002, you may or may not remember that I have to take a hiatus from the BB every 2-3 years or so.

It's not anyone here, I promise. It's me.

Anyway, I'm taking my traditional 6-month break now. I need to fully get my strength back and tend to my mother and the internet is going to have to take a back seat for a while.

See you later ....

 

My mother still needs prayer.

One thing to rejoice over is that while she has lost a total now of 39 pounds (not having much room for weight loss), she has gained back TWO this week and is was before Thanksgiving day.

I know I said I was staying away until next spring, but I am finding my only stress relief at the end of the day or middle afternoon IS getting on the internet for about an hour. I'm purposely avoiding things that make me want to pull my hair out. The first few days it wasn't easy, but now I find it easy as blinking an eye.

I'm sorry.

I have started a spiritual cleansing and am feeling somewhat more at peace.

Thank you for your prayers - we could still use them.