Jennifer Marie
New Member
Greetings All!! I've come here in search of some good old Christian fellowship. It's so hard to find Christians these days. Over the past year, my life has been a roller coaster of ups and downs, which I'm sure is the same as everyone else. Today, I find myself both extremely blessed and troubled at the same time. I'm blessed for all that I have in my life and for my family and the recent answered prayers for a sick father-in-law. I'm troubled because I'm not happy with my life and my job. I feel the need to help others, like my family, and I want to make a difference in people's lives. I feel that God has put me in this position in my life right now and I don't know how to go about it. A bit of background: I'm 33 years old and I've been a Christian for 22 year. I have 2 bachelors degrees in science, which by the time I finished all of the coursework, all of the jobs required a masters or higher. So I have student loan debt that I will probably have for the rest of my life. After looking for jobs in my field (I applied at over 60 places with not one call back) a friend of the family (whole other issue) offered me a job at a sign company but there is no room for advancement or pay raise. I don't make enough money to support myself (under $30,000/year) but I'm extremely grateful for my husband that does make enough money to support the both of us and he has given me a house to live in and food to eat without reservation. My mom was diagnosed with cancer in November 2016. She was told it was treatable and started chemo and radiation for 5 days a week for 7 weeks. She finished her treatment in February 2017 and then died 2 weeks later after it rapidly spread without the doctors knowing. She helped me plan every piece of my wedding for April 2017 but missed the big day. There has been a lot of illness/death in my family but it's different when it's a parent. I feel like it's my responsibility to take care of my dad, who has some medical issues of his own, my aunt (mom's sister) who is a bi-lateral amputee with a ton of medical issues, and my husband's family who is a mess all over. I feel like I'm standing in the middle of a tornado of drama but it's bright and sunny where I stand because the Lord is helping me. I feel like there is no hope in this world and all of the people I interact with on a daily basis are so focused on themselves and creating drama and gossiping about others and selfish. I try not to judge others but I just want to distance myself from all of it. I literally feel sick when I go to work everyday because my boss is not who she appeared to be before I really knew her and she makes me lie to people so she doesn't look bad and to cover her mistakes and then throws me under the bus when she has to face up to her mistakes. I pray for patience and strength and forgiveness and guidance. Enough of my ranting 
... I don't have a lot of friends so I'm looking for some Christian friends that share the same beliefs and are true, genuine, honest people. Hope you all have a blessed day
... I don't have a lot of friends so I'm looking for some Christian friends that share the same beliefs and are true, genuine, honest people. Hope you all have a blessed day 
