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There is a difference between those 2 things.
My question is in order to become saved do you have to know that you're a sinner? I mean this is a huge revelation. Or is it enough when you know you have sinned? Because I cannot remember wether when I repented more than 4 years ago I knew that I was a sinner. I definitely knew that I'm not a "good person" and that I have done many wrongs things but what if I didn't have this huge revelation of being a sinner? Does this mean that I'm not even saved!? EEK!
Somehow everything is so complicated. I heard a pastor speak about this he said some christians know in their mind that they have sinned but not in their heart. How shall I know wether I know it in my heart? I mean by now I know what being a sinner means because I have a conscience for this and my senses are sharper. I notice when I have a sinful thought and all that. These are things which I wouldn't even have noticed before cause I had no conscience for this. You don't notice something you don't know. But I don't know if this is only intellectual knowledge or not. Somehow there are christians which make everything so complicated that in the end you become totally confused like me and start asking yourself wether you're even saved.
And what also scares me is that I talked about God with my grandmother a while ago. I had asked her before wether she believes in Jesus, she said yes. But I wanted to make sure she really had given her life to Jesus. So I decided to ask her. It took a lot of courage to do this. It wasn't easy for me at all. So I asked her wether she knows what being born again means. She didn't. I explained it to her. She said nobody had ever explained this to her. I mean she's 90 years old. People in her time were more likely to believe in God than people in our time. She also went to church in her past and all that but most likely she had never given her life to Jesus the way we do. So I asked her wether she wanted to do this and she said yes. She was really interested in it. I had a Chick tract and I had her repeat the prayer from this tract. But then the shocking thing happened!! It was like a nightmare.
During the prayer when it came to confessing that you're a sinner she said that she doesn't know what being a sinner means!!
I explained to her that everybody has sinned. I told her a few examples of sins. Lying, being angry etc. And she agreed with me. I mean she could not deny that she had never told a lie. But I don't know if she really got it. I mean what if the holy spirit did not really convict her? What if she didn't get that she is a sinner? Somehow she also had this thinking that you have to be a good person to get to heaven. Most likely she had this thinking all her life and of course I cannot overwrite this in a few minutes. Maybe her mind was too set and also too unflexible especially at her age to understand all these things. I explained it as good as I can, maybe I should have used bible verses which I did not. I didn't think of this.
But this whole thing really scares me. I was so relieved after she had prayed the prayer but now I am thinking about it and ask myself wether it really worked. What shall I do now? This is very depressing. I am scared of talking to her again about this. What if I talk to her again about this and realize that she didn't understand anything? This would be a real nightmare. Does getting saved or not depend on how well you understand the gospel? What if she didn't really get it? I explained it as good as I could but what if she still has this thinking that you have to be a good person to become saved?
Doesn't God look at the heart? Or does knowledge and understanding count?
My question is in order to become saved do you have to know that you're a sinner? I mean this is a huge revelation. Or is it enough when you know you have sinned? Because I cannot remember wether when I repented more than 4 years ago I knew that I was a sinner. I definitely knew that I'm not a "good person" and that I have done many wrongs things but what if I didn't have this huge revelation of being a sinner? Does this mean that I'm not even saved!? EEK!
Somehow everything is so complicated. I heard a pastor speak about this he said some christians know in their mind that they have sinned but not in their heart. How shall I know wether I know it in my heart? I mean by now I know what being a sinner means because I have a conscience for this and my senses are sharper. I notice when I have a sinful thought and all that. These are things which I wouldn't even have noticed before cause I had no conscience for this. You don't notice something you don't know. But I don't know if this is only intellectual knowledge or not. Somehow there are christians which make everything so complicated that in the end you become totally confused like me and start asking yourself wether you're even saved.
And what also scares me is that I talked about God with my grandmother a while ago. I had asked her before wether she believes in Jesus, she said yes. But I wanted to make sure she really had given her life to Jesus. So I decided to ask her. It took a lot of courage to do this. It wasn't easy for me at all. So I asked her wether she knows what being born again means. She didn't. I explained it to her. She said nobody had ever explained this to her. I mean she's 90 years old. People in her time were more likely to believe in God than people in our time. She also went to church in her past and all that but most likely she had never given her life to Jesus the way we do. So I asked her wether she wanted to do this and she said yes. She was really interested in it. I had a Chick tract and I had her repeat the prayer from this tract. But then the shocking thing happened!! It was like a nightmare.
During the prayer when it came to confessing that you're a sinner she said that she doesn't know what being a sinner means!!
I explained to her that everybody has sinned. I told her a few examples of sins. Lying, being angry etc. And she agreed with me. I mean she could not deny that she had never told a lie. But I don't know if she really got it. I mean what if the holy spirit did not really convict her? What if she didn't get that she is a sinner? Somehow she also had this thinking that you have to be a good person to get to heaven. Most likely she had this thinking all her life and of course I cannot overwrite this in a few minutes. Maybe her mind was too set and also too unflexible especially at her age to understand all these things. I explained it as good as I can, maybe I should have used bible verses which I did not. I didn't think of this.
But this whole thing really scares me. I was so relieved after she had prayed the prayer but now I am thinking about it and ask myself wether it really worked. What shall I do now? This is very depressing. I am scared of talking to her again about this. What if I talk to her again about this and realize that she didn't understand anything? This would be a real nightmare. Does getting saved or not depend on how well you understand the gospel? What if she didn't really get it? I explained it as good as I could but what if she still has this thinking that you have to be a good person to become saved?
Doesn't God look at the heart? Or does knowledge and understanding count?