Look at the HUGE tree in my yard.....

I've lived in the same place since 1995 (or '96 - I can't remember right off hand.)

My mother, driving past my house to the road that leads to hers, stopped one day a couple of weeks ago and took this picture (below). I've been struggling spiritually as of late about what have I "missed" that God has for me and that He has been telling me that I am ignoring due to my own self-centeredness. I am saved, of course, and am grateful for it, but I just feel like I have missed the boat as far as the natural and inevitable spiritual growth that comes after salvation.

It's been a burdensome battle I am having, let me tell you that.

This tree, that you can link to below, has been a part of my yard, since I was deeded the property. In fact, my mother can remember it as a small thing when she was a child and played in what was then, my grandparents huge garden.

Of course, I knew the tree was there. I always notice the trunk when I go to the mailbox and I've noticed the fallen leaves, but I have never looked UP and seen it in it's complete beauty and fullness.

I feel like I have missed out on some serious growth as a Christian because I have not looked up and acknowledged the complete majesty of God. I've been in a spiritual turmoil of guilt and confusion and anger at myself.

I think God sent me this picture (via my mother) for a reason.

Anyways, here it is (please ignore my dead azaleas and scrappy shrubs).

http://i839.photobucket.com/albums/zz311/mahjonggirl/bigoaktree.jpg