My spritual jouney...HELP!

Start with what you know.

God is real.
The Bible is true.
Jesus Christ was the Son of God, and died as an offering for us and then was raised from death.
We who believe this are to go tell it to the world.

Now, pray about this, and then go find a church in your aread that believes those basic things. One God, the crucifixion and resurrection, and that we must go tell it.
Get a copy of their doctrinal statement.
Look at the doctrinal statement and see what it says.
If you have any questions or doubts about any of those statements, take out your bible and read what it says. Do not read verses only, read everything surrounding the verse that talks about your question.
If you discuss it with other people, and you should, do it with your bible on hand. Never trust or believe something doctrinal that cannot be shown to you in the scriptures. Not in commentaries, although they can used for explanations, but in the scriptures.
Keep praying about it. Your learning will never end. You will never know all that there is to learn in the bible. Your concepts of doctrines will forever be forming,taking shape, and growing deeper, but after you've studied and come to a faith in the basics, they will not be shaken easily because they will always remain right there in your bible and you can look at them and see them.
You need a firm foundation. If you do not have one, it will because you haven't studied enough, and that may be coupled with a distrustful nature. A distrustful nature is not bad in and of itself, in fact it can be a very positive thing because you learn more from all those questions, but you do need to set down a few basics and not waver from them. Do what it takes to get to that point, but also realize that as humans, most of do not have 100% solid faith even in the ground we stand on. Don't resent yourself if you cannot have 100% faith in everything you look at. 95% faith and 5% doubt still tips the scale quite nicely and seeing it from that perspective adds the element of common sense, which tells you that the 95% weighs more and can be trusted.

 

Also, it seems to me you've already answered the question. You said once you've done research, you've settled it in your mind. That being said, go research what the church(es) you want to join believe and compare that with what the Bible has to say. At that point, your mind should be made up

 

Christ Bearer, see if some part of this applies to you. (I don't know that it does.

Monroe Parker, one of my mentors, wasa wonderful evangelist, scholar and missions leader. He used to use this as a sermon illustration.

He would take a handkerchief, representing feeling, or emotion, and put it on the pulpit. He would put on top of it a songbook, representing faith. On top of that he would put the Bible, representing fact. Many people base their life on feeling, even their faith. They would then look for Scripture to back up their feelings and faith: feeling, then faith, then fact.

Then he would put the songbook on the bottom, with the handkerchief next and the Bible on top. Other people base their whole life on their faith. If their faith is weak, this will affect their emotions, and they will leave the facts of God's Word till later: faith, then feeling, then fact.

The Biblical way to life is to make fact (the Bible) the foundation for your life, then base your faith on that. The feelings (joy, peace, etc.) will then be stable and constant, and the believer will not wander: fact, then faith, finally feeling.

 

You need to study the Bible for yourself. Very often, you will find the answers yourself. I have rarely been persuaded by other viewpoints without first studying for myself.

You admitted you are easily swayed. You must build the foundation of faith as the Bible says, not as a church says. As others have said, research and find a church that holds the Bible to be true.

I see very little in joing a Catholic church as many things they do are not in keeping with the Scriptures. The Catholic church will not help you draw yourself to Christ.

It sounds like you need to become grounded in the Word and the only way to so that is to study (2 Timothy 2:15) the Scriptures. I believe it was the Berean church that searched the Scriptures daily to see if what they heard preached was true.

 

Before joining a Church or different denomination, see how they match up with what the Bible says. If a denomination says you are saved by works, what does the Bible say? If the church says you are to pray to other humans, what does the Bible say? I agree with the advice you have received here. Instead of "making up your own mind", pray that God opens your heart for His wisdom in discerning the things of God, compared to man made "religion". Then STUDY with an open mind!

 

since you like to do your own research, i recommend you read either book by James McCarthy The Gospel According to Rome and/or Letters to Catholics

 

I would hope you find a church that teaches the Bible to be Truth and that is a standard for our lives. I see many denominations today that are pulling away from "absolute truth" allowing members to believe anyway thay want. These are the ones Scripture warns us of as "ear ticklers".
I was once at a point in my life where I searched thru the many denominations and landed in a Baptist church because I found the teaching most like scripture. I have also left Baptist churches because they were not going by The Book. So it is not easy. You must let the Spirit guide and reveal.

 

First of all, crucify all the little feelings and emotions. Those will not help you at all. Second, pray without ceasing. And third, take your directions from the Scriptures and them only.

God will guide you to the right church, even if it's not the first one you go to.

 

You believe what you believe but you don't know why you believe it. Yes you can say that you believe what the Bible says is true but why do you believe it? Why do you believe that Jesus is the only way to heaven and not works? Why do you believe that Noah was actually swallowed by a whale? Why do you believe...fill in the blank. Find Biblical truth on what you believe. I know that Jesus is the only way to heaven because that is what it says in John:14:6, "Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me." and in John 3:3, "Verily, Verily, I say unto thee, except a man be born again he cannot see the kindom of God." and not by works because...
Titus:3:5,"Not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to his mercy he saved us, by the washing of regeneration, and renewing of the Holy Ghost;" I looked this up and now I know why I believe this. You should do the same. When people ask you about your faith and they contradict you ask them "Well... can you show me scripture where it says that?" But don't ask this without first looking up the right answer for yourself. Also what you said in James:2:20,"But wilt thou know, O vain man, that faith without works is dead?" This talks about that if you don't excersise your faith, faith is dead. You had faith that God could save you from hell, faith that He will keep you safe, faith... you fill in the rest. If you don't test your faith then how do you grow in Christ? How do you know that He will always be there for you? If you base your beliefs on what the Bible says find a good church that believes the same things you do. Pray to God for guidance and knowlege. You know... Satan may be playing with you. He may be putting these thoughts into your head to keep you from serving Christ. As long as you allow this to go on your just going to get more miserable. I would suggest reading a chapter in your Bible everyday and "pray without ceasing." God used scripture to get back at Satan... I too use this method sometimes when Satan is attacking me; and it works.

 

Christ Bearer.

Start with what you believe about how to have a personal relationship with God through Jesus Christ. You must be born again.

Here is a good article on the truth of what is correct on justification and how the Catholic Church is in error:

http://www.the-highway.com/Justification-Gerstner.html

I grew up a Catholic and went to Catholic school for 8 years so I know. Read 1 Cor. 1 about the cross and meditate on the last verse.

 

Richard, I just went into Google and read an excerpt from the book you recommened-The Gospel According To Rome-read the chapter: Mary co-redeemer...INTERESTING!

 

I agree. James McCarthy is top notch when it comes to the false gospel proclaimed by the Catholic Church.

 

Just remember, life in Christ is not utlimently about religion. It is about serving, worshiping and obeying God and his commandments. A good church is important, but dont go so caught up you loose sight of the really important things. You will have to seek the Bible and God's will know what church is right for you and why.