easternstar
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Forgive the following 'rant':
The scripture suggests that Jesus experienced all the trials that come on us as humans, but He never experienced old age. As I have entered my seventh decade of life, I find it incredibly lonely. I have had serious health issues in my younger years, but I am facing that again. Our kids are grown and scattered. We once had a close relationship with out grandkids but no more. My parents have died, and my oldest sister; I have one sister left whom I rarely see, but we do talk on the phone occasionally. No more holiday get-togethers. Rare church attendance. I play guitar, and write songs. I have three very nice guitars that I play mostly for myself. About the only time I leave the house is to go to the grocery store. I used to like to drive to a nearby lake about 20 miles away, but I have a severe low back condition that limits my driving. I can make it about an hour to my specialists, but am in pretty bad pain by the time I get home. I've got suspected prostate cancer, detected by MRI, had the lesion for at least 30 months, had three 'liquid biopsies' but no physical biopsy yet and would rather not say why. But the lesion was a PI-RADS 4 out of 5 score, which is not good.
Anyway, the loneliness and depression gets to me often. Several close friends and relatives have died in the last year, and this ol' life is getting hard to take. I wish God would make Himself real and known to me, and communicate with me. That would help.
Venting over, for now.
The scripture suggests that Jesus experienced all the trials that come on us as humans, but He never experienced old age. As I have entered my seventh decade of life, I find it incredibly lonely. I have had serious health issues in my younger years, but I am facing that again. Our kids are grown and scattered. We once had a close relationship with out grandkids but no more. My parents have died, and my oldest sister; I have one sister left whom I rarely see, but we do talk on the phone occasionally. No more holiday get-togethers. Rare church attendance. I play guitar, and write songs. I have three very nice guitars that I play mostly for myself. About the only time I leave the house is to go to the grocery store. I used to like to drive to a nearby lake about 20 miles away, but I have a severe low back condition that limits my driving. I can make it about an hour to my specialists, but am in pretty bad pain by the time I get home. I've got suspected prostate cancer, detected by MRI, had the lesion for at least 30 months, had three 'liquid biopsies' but no physical biopsy yet and would rather not say why. But the lesion was a PI-RADS 4 out of 5 score, which is not good.
Anyway, the loneliness and depression gets to me often. Several close friends and relatives have died in the last year, and this ol' life is getting hard to take. I wish God would make Himself real and known to me, and communicate with me. That would help.
Venting over, for now.
