Brother Bob,
Would you please pray for me?
I'm incapable right now of going to work for others, and I dont really have a family.
About all I can say is that I did get up in the morning but Im wondering what use that is.
I thought maybe God was trying to make me realize alot of things and I did realize them. But now Im wondering if this is ever going to be over so that I CAN go out and work for others. I want to more than anything in the whole wide world. I want to start a brand new life.
But I have to have my feet working so that I can.
Just so you will know what to pray for... here's a short description...
My husband hates Christianity. I didnt know that when I married him. He said he is leaving me. So when he told me that I started pacing around the house for about 4 hours or so and when I was doing that.. the next day my foot started swelling. Now its happened to the other foot as well.
If I try to sit down like at my computer or on the couch or in a car... I cant do it for more than a couple of minutes at a time and my foot turns a purplish color... and pressure builds up.
Like I said, now its in my other foot too.
So basically I have to either lie down or walk around and walking around isnt easy..
You dont realize how much you need to sit down till you cant do it anymore. Its wrecking my whole life... I cant do anything.
I have been to 3 orthopedic doctors but to no avail. I have had to practically beg them to do any tests. When the lady at the blood clot testing place asked me what my symptoms were and what the doctors had done about it she couldnt believe it. She said it sure didnt sound like they were doing much for me in light of what my problem was.
I have had to put up with these doctors treating me like it must all be in my head because when I got to the doctor's my foot doesnt turn purple if I sit down. I am guessing that it has something to do with a vascular problem.. veins or arteries. Right now Im thinking maybe it is tarsal tunnel syndrome which is just like carpal tunnel syndrome like people get in their wrists if they do lots of computer work. But only I think instead of pinched nerves it is pinched veins or arteries. Someone told me the other day that that is definitely a possibility.
And FINALLY after begging my family doctor to do an MRI xray it was found that there are abnormalities in my foot... (they only x rayed one of them) .. either a fracture or a bad sprain... not sure yet but I have scheduled a appointment with a whole new doctor now and will show him the MRI results.
I chose this new doctor because over the phone when I called one night at the hospital and he was the doctor on call for emergencies.... when I described my problems to him he said it sounded like something vascular to him... So Im thinking at least he seems to have more sense than the others.
At least now I dont have to put up with them acting like this is all on my mind anymore since now I have the MRI results. I think I have tarsal tunnel syndrom like I said, because I can feel pinched nerves or veins on the insides of both my ankles and on the outsides too, which I believe is cutting off the circulation. The fracture or whatever it is .. I think is because of my original injury which happened on my left foot which apparently never got fixed properly.
Im really scared half to death, I want to get them to hurry up and figure out what the problem is... Im going to beg this new doctor to do an Arteriorgram which is injecting dye into your arteries so they can see where the blockages might be. And a Doppler Sound test too I want done.
Anyway this has been going on 4 months now. Its like everything was going on pretty much ok and then I woke up one day and my whole life fell to pieces.
And like I said... okay.. I learned lots of things and re-dedicated my life to God and want more than anything in the world to be able to go out and work for God but thats hard to do without feet and without being able to sit down.
Not to mention this has been triple difficult with these doctors acting like its all in my head and with a husband who couldnt care less and I have to worry about him leaving me all at the same time.
Bob, please pray for me? I have prayed so much I ust dont know what to pray for anymore.. I have cried so much I have just about cried myself out.
Claudia