To use a term that is more contemporary with our time, I'll rephrase:
Spoken like a true Calminian!
...or one that holds to a hybrid system half-way between Calvinism and Arminianism.
Calminian Baptists
http://dannychisholm.blogspot.com/2007/10/calminian-baptists.html
(don't worry JF, you're not alone, I suspect you stand with the majority of Baptists today)
Excerpts from the above article:
“God is sovereign, and is Lord over all creation. Human beings also have free will and can decide to accept or reject the gospel. Yes, we are all sinners in need of a Saviour but are not predestined to salvation in the sense that we have no choice in the matter. The "logical" conclusion is that God predestines some to heaven while others to hell. This "double-edged" predestination is what I find particularly dangerous. I cannot imagine a loving God allowing persons to come into the world only to condemn them to hell. This is a difficult axiom to accept and is inconsistant with a loving God. God's sovereignty must be affirmed along with the freedom of humans to determine their own response to the gospel. This paradox is not logical, but it is biblical.”
“There is a paradox when dealing with God's sovereignty and Human freedom of choice. I affirm both to be true, yet there is a mystery involved when trying to reconcile them. I am choosing to live with the tension and trust God with the results.”
Here's the connection between 'Fullerism' and 'Calminianism':
http://www.voxdeibaptist.org/baptist_heritage_andrew.htm
Perhaps Fuller’s greatest contribution to Christianity was to free us from the shackles of philosophical theology. Because many could not see any consistency between God’s sovereignty and man’s responsibility they rejected one or the other. Fuller on the other hand, concluded that any lack of logic in such thinking was due to his own lacking, not God’s.
"The truth is, there are but two ways for us to take: one is to reject them both, and the Bible with them, on account of its inconsistencies; the other is to embrace them both, concluding that, as they are both revealed in Scriptures, they are both true and both consistent, and that is owing to the darkness of our understandings, that they do not appear so to us."
But, it does seem that Fuller was more Calvinistic than you are JF (from the same article):
".... Fuller also reminded fellow Baptists and all Christians that regeneration precedes faith not vice-a-versa.
"Man’s response to the invitation to repent and to come to Christ is not simply a wise human decision, a balancing of the arguments for and against, and thinking that those for are more cogent. The decision is itself a work of grace."
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thanks!
Do hold to the fact that God does elect to eternal life all those chosen by Him to be saved and placed "In Christ" from Eternity past, BUT do not hold to God electing unsaved to go to hell, active act, they will go their thru oen voliation ...
Also think that regeneration/faith 2 sides of same coin in salvation process...
God does do an internal act of grace to make person "ready" and "able" to receive jesus, to exercise faith in Christ...
God sends the Holy Spirit to renew/regenerate his elect ones, and they exercise their faith in what they can now hear and respond to, the Gospel message "faith comes by hearing, by the word of God"