I'm a man in his early thirties. I come from a part of the world that has been secularized very aggressively and where traditionally everyone is a Catholic. We have some baptist and pentecoastal churches, but they are marginal and tend to be picked by people who acquire different convictions, not by people who frequent them since their childhood because their parents brought them there. They are seen almost as sects, little different for instance than Jehovah's Witnesses.
I have always believed, though I stopped going to church when my mother stopped bringing me to it more than 20 years ago. I went to a catholic private high school, but once I left high school I stopped having access to a Christian environment.
I didn't go to a catholic church, because I didn't felt at ease there. However I recently realized that the Bible commands us not to forsake the fellowship with others in a church, so I realized I must change that attitude. Also in this very secular society I feel very isolated, I see no one who shares my belief. I am rather dismayed at all this modernism and decadent behavior which is not in tune with me.
I ended up wondering if I would feel more at ease in an evangelical church. I went to see the pastor of a Baptist church who welcomed me in. We had a discussion about the faith, and of course about salvation through faith alone, which is the most important tenet of protestant denominations and which I had slowly started to lean toward in the last few years. So we got along well and I agreed with most of what he said to me.
When it came to the requirement for adult baptism however that is where I started to feel very bad. I shared these feelings with him, and he gave me a book to read explaining why it is justified. I found myself agreeing with much of what was written in the book.
However I still feel really bad and traitorous with establishing links and frequenting a protestant church. I don't know what to do with this, I feel like an outsider and like someone who doesn't belong.
May I make some suggestions. First, you repeatedly say, "I feel" or "feel bad." throughout your post. Don't go by your feelings but by the Word of God IN SPITE OF FEELINGS as feelings could be a result of indigestion, they change from day to day, but the Word of God does not change but reads the same every day.
Neither should you be led by BLIND FAITH, but your faith should be in God's Word as that is the light to lead you. If a person or church speaks contrary to the Word of God "it is because there is no light in them" (Isa. 8:20). Follow the Word not your feelings.
Next, there are pro-Roman Catholics on this forum who are blind as a bat and have no clue about Biblical salvation, the ordinances or the church as taught in Scriptures - IGNORE THEM!
Finally, the truth of salvation is very simple. You were born in a spiritual separated state from God. God is light, God is life, God is holy. You were born in a spiritual state of darkness, deadness and uncleanness (Eph. 4:18-19).
Essential salvation is the reversal of your natural born spiritual state where you are brought back into spiritual union with God, and therefore called out of darkness into light, from deadness to life and from uncleaness to righteousness.
That reversal of spiritual condition is what the Bible calls the New birth or regeneration or past tense "saved".
That new birth is a CREATIVE act God (Eph. 2:10; 4:24; Col. 3:10) and therefore accomplished by God alone without your help or the help of others (Eph. 2:8-9) but occurs INSIDE you whereby God gives you a NEW HEART.
Finally, Abraham is the pattern given to you by the Bible and to "all who are of faith" in regard to works, ordinances, the law before and after the cross (Rom. 4:11, 16; Gal. 3:6-8).
1. Hence, "works" must be defined in relationship with Abraham BEFORE MOSES, and BEFORE JUDAISM, thus BEFORE THE LAW - Rom. 4:1-6
2. Second, justification by grace through faith is of the "ungodly" (Rom. 4:5) and therefore all schemes of justification that ultimately demand God justifies only the "godly" are false.
3. The act of justification by grace through faith is a completed action not an ongoing action as Paul explicitly states that ABraham was justified "in uncircumcision" NOT IN CIRCUMCISION - Rom. 4:9-11.
4. Justification by "faith" does not mean "faithfulness" but has gospel promise as its object and simply means that one believes God is able to provide what he promised (Rom. 4:21).
5. Justification is WITHOUT DIVINE ORDINANCES as Abraham was justified "in uncircumcision" NOT IN CIRCUMCISION - Rom. 4:9-11.
6. Finally, no human being has ALWAYS been saved because you came into this world in unbelief and thus under condemnation and you remain in condemnation until you IN YOUR OWN PERSON change from unbelief to faith.