I need to thank this board in a public way for freeing me from the Enemy. In part, because of this board I have seen a breakthrough against a number of my besetting sins, an abandonment of Pentecostalism and Charismaticism which I now know are no better than the occult, and I have seen the defeat of a demonic assault against me that has lasted for years and years and years.
I have decided to explain how this happened through the testimony I have prepared for and started sharing with unbelievers with some commentary afterwards. If you could comment on this testimony to improve it that would be greatly appreciated. I do not mention this forum, but this is where I began to question whether my so called prophecy was of God or the evil one with me deciding in the end that it had to be the evil one. Perhaps, I do need to mention this forum for setting me straight though, and perhaps I need to mention that I believed this to be Pentecostal/Charismatic prophecy for years.
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I have schizoaffective bipolar type disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, panic attacks, extra-pyramidal symptoms (EPS), and a verbal tic disorder. I also have migraine headaches with aura and seizures, though my neurologist thinks they are likely pseudo-seizures.
I have had very unusual voices since the onset of psychosis years ago in that my voices speak through me at times as if I am a medium channeling a spirit and then my voices go onto hold a conversation with me out loud. My therapist and I discussed this and he believed that this was an aspect of my mental illness and psychoses. His conclusion was that my brain may be smart enough to be generating very smart voices that can converse with me, claim to be demons, know what words to say to wound me, act purposefully in conversation, adapt inside a conversation just like a person, and such. However, it still is just my one brain and I. He believed the reason my voices may come out as if I am a medium channeling a spirit is that I have a verbal tic disorder.
However, I did say I wanted to see if someone could try and cast out a demon. He said it couldn't hurt just as long as I knew that if it didn't work, then that meant it was mental illness. I then discussed what was happening with my pastor in an email and he decided to come over the next day. He walked around my home and prayed over my house and I that we be delivered from demonic attack in Jesus Christ's name. I had two or three likely pseudo-seizures during the prayer and I heard a voice say "I hate you" very clearly, which I told my pastor. He left and I went into my room to journal, as he pointed out this all began when I had embraced certain sinful attitudes and desires. I repented of these attitudes and desires and just as I did so I started to convulse and shriek but surprisingly there was no pain. Then the voice that had talked to me the most like a spirit would through a medium was gone and has not returned since.
Now mind you I still have more voices talking through me and at least two more claim to be demons, so my pastor will continue to pray over me and in Jesus' name I know any spiritual aspect of my disorder will be dealt with. But of course, I am mentally ill and badly in need of treatment. It is only that some aspects of what I am going through seems to be the result of demonic attack.
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Now, the spirit cast out was the one giving me false prophecy for many, many years ever since I was an atheist. As an atheist I had received vivid dreams that perfectly predicted future events in my own life from my own first person perspective which I thought made me psychic, and as an imposter Christian I was able to enter a kind of prayer trance and guess every card right on a precognition test, and even win a Risk game by asking the spirit of false prophecy what to do next. I thought this was Pentecostal or Charismatic prophecy. The bible talks of false prophetic spirits like this in Acts 16:16-18.
Now, according to 1 John 4:2-3 this spirit I cozied up to for years for my "psychic precognition" as an atheist and later "prophecy" as an imposter Christian was the spirit of the antichrist.
Now, the evil spirit remaining, which I now believe to only be one demon, will hopefully be dealt with on the day I see my pastor next, which is this Wednesday. I have to share on sexual sin as an imposter Christian that I hid from my church, but I can't go into anything on this public forum..
As for my salvation, I worry that I may not have the Holy Spirit yet, but at the same time I am certain I pass the Roman 10:9 tests, and I can definitely tell you I am a much changed man after coming to faith in Jesus' resurrection eight and a half months ago.
Of course, this is a discussion board and comments are welcome. Thank you!
Our Father in Heaven Bless You and Your Loved Ones Abundantly in Jesus' Name,
Steven Yeadon
I have decided to explain how this happened through the testimony I have prepared for and started sharing with unbelievers with some commentary afterwards. If you could comment on this testimony to improve it that would be greatly appreciated. I do not mention this forum, but this is where I began to question whether my so called prophecy was of God or the evil one with me deciding in the end that it had to be the evil one. Perhaps, I do need to mention this forum for setting me straight though, and perhaps I need to mention that I believed this to be Pentecostal/Charismatic prophecy for years.
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I have schizoaffective bipolar type disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, panic attacks, extra-pyramidal symptoms (EPS), and a verbal tic disorder. I also have migraine headaches with aura and seizures, though my neurologist thinks they are likely pseudo-seizures.
I have had very unusual voices since the onset of psychosis years ago in that my voices speak through me at times as if I am a medium channeling a spirit and then my voices go onto hold a conversation with me out loud. My therapist and I discussed this and he believed that this was an aspect of my mental illness and psychoses. His conclusion was that my brain may be smart enough to be generating very smart voices that can converse with me, claim to be demons, know what words to say to wound me, act purposefully in conversation, adapt inside a conversation just like a person, and such. However, it still is just my one brain and I. He believed the reason my voices may come out as if I am a medium channeling a spirit is that I have a verbal tic disorder.
However, I did say I wanted to see if someone could try and cast out a demon. He said it couldn't hurt just as long as I knew that if it didn't work, then that meant it was mental illness. I then discussed what was happening with my pastor in an email and he decided to come over the next day. He walked around my home and prayed over my house and I that we be delivered from demonic attack in Jesus Christ's name. I had two or three likely pseudo-seizures during the prayer and I heard a voice say "I hate you" very clearly, which I told my pastor. He left and I went into my room to journal, as he pointed out this all began when I had embraced certain sinful attitudes and desires. I repented of these attitudes and desires and just as I did so I started to convulse and shriek but surprisingly there was no pain. Then the voice that had talked to me the most like a spirit would through a medium was gone and has not returned since.
Now mind you I still have more voices talking through me and at least two more claim to be demons, so my pastor will continue to pray over me and in Jesus' name I know any spiritual aspect of my disorder will be dealt with. But of course, I am mentally ill and badly in need of treatment. It is only that some aspects of what I am going through seems to be the result of demonic attack.
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Now, the spirit cast out was the one giving me false prophecy for many, many years ever since I was an atheist. As an atheist I had received vivid dreams that perfectly predicted future events in my own life from my own first person perspective which I thought made me psychic, and as an imposter Christian I was able to enter a kind of prayer trance and guess every card right on a precognition test, and even win a Risk game by asking the spirit of false prophecy what to do next. I thought this was Pentecostal or Charismatic prophecy. The bible talks of false prophetic spirits like this in Acts 16:16-18.
Now, according to 1 John 4:2-3 this spirit I cozied up to for years for my "psychic precognition" as an atheist and later "prophecy" as an imposter Christian was the spirit of the antichrist.
Now, the evil spirit remaining, which I now believe to only be one demon, will hopefully be dealt with on the day I see my pastor next, which is this Wednesday. I have to share on sexual sin as an imposter Christian that I hid from my church, but I can't go into anything on this public forum..
As for my salvation, I worry that I may not have the Holy Spirit yet, but at the same time I am certain I pass the Roman 10:9 tests, and I can definitely tell you I am a much changed man after coming to faith in Jesus' resurrection eight and a half months ago.
Of course, this is a discussion board and comments are welcome. Thank you!
Our Father in Heaven Bless You and Your Loved Ones Abundantly in Jesus' Name,
Steven Yeadon
