Tim,
My testimony is very similar to yours. I was a Calvinist for over 9 years after reading John MacArthur and R.C. Sproul. Ironically enough, it was only after I followed Frogman's advice of studing the scripture for myself with the guidance of the Holy Spirit that I learned Calvinism falls short of representing the true teachings of scripture.
I will give you five reasons not to believe in Calvinism if you want me to expound on any of these five reasons let me know and I would be more than happy to do so:
1. Total Inability (Depravity) is not supported in Scripture. The Bible talks about man being completely unrighteous, dead in our sin and unwilling to seek God. But it never teaches that man is unable to respond in faith to general call of the HS through the gospel message. That is an assumption that Calvinist bring to these texts. The Bible calls people to faith and repentance as if they are capable of that response, to assume otherwise must be clearly shown in the text, it is not!
2. Total Depravity's major scriptural support is found in John 6. But the truth of the matter is that Jesus is speaking to Israel in John 6. We can see in John 12:37-41 that most of Israel has been hardened and cannot believe until the full number of Gentiles have been grafted in (Romans 10 and 11). So these passages must be understood in their unique context. When Jesus says things like "He who has ears let him hear." Calvinist apply that to their soteriology but in reality Jesus is speaking about those who have been hardened as apposed to those who have not as spoken of in Matt. 21; Mark 4:10; and Acts 28:26-28, it is clear in light of these passages that Jesus was not referring fallen humanity born "total unable" because of the Fall as Calvinists contend.
3. The teaching of Israel's hardening makes no sense in light of Calvinism's teaching of Total Inability. If men are born deaf, blind and unable to understand and turn to God as Calvinism's "Total Inability" teaches then why would God need to "hardened" Israel by making them deaf and blind and unable to understand the gospel? Why make a deaf man deaf? Why veil the gospel in parables from people who according to Calvinists are total unable to understand it anyway? It makes no sense. Plus, look at Acts 28:26-28 and you will see that men without the hardening are able to see, hear understand and turn. And guess what, according to Paul, the Gentiles will listen, as opposed to hardened Israel who will not.
4. Total Depravity (Total Inability) is the foundation of the whole Calvinistic line of reasoning. Total inability necessates the "effectual calling" (irresistable grace) because without it man is totally unable to believe--- that necessitates "unconditional election" in which God determines who will receive the effectual calling. If there is no scriptural foundation for Total Depravity there is no foundation for Calvinism.
5. The geniune call of the gospel to all men. Even Calvinist confirm that the Gospel calls out for all to come. Some Calvinists even confirm that the HS also calls all to come as seen in Rev. 22:17. Here are some other texts that lead us to believe that humanity must make a choice:
- “I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing: therefore choose life” (Deut. 30:19)
- “Choose this day whom ye will serve” (Josh. 30:19)
- “Repent…unless you repent you shall perish” (Mt. 4:17; Lk. 13:3)
- “Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved” (Acts 16:31)
- “Repent and be baptized” (Acts 2:38)
- “With the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation” (Rom. 10:10)
- “Come unto Me” (Mt. 11:28)
- “And the Spirit and the bride say, Come” (Rev. 22:17).
There are dozens more that even by Calvinist's own admission lead people to think that their choice really is the deciding factor in their salvation. Does scripture deceive the lost into thinking that it is their choice, only to straighten them out once they are mature enough to understand the dogma of Calvinism? No. Scripture is consistant. If it leads people to believe that their choice is the deciding factor, then it is true.
We know that God wants all to be saved (1 Tim 2:4, 2 Peter 3:9, Matt. 23:37). We also know that "He bound ALL men over to disobience so that He might have mercy on them ALL." (Roman 11:32). Either God's plan goes against His wants and desires or God also wanted man to choose for Himself who he would serve.
The scripture calls us to "consider the cost" of being a disciple. God also tells us to "reason it out" and make our decision. Unless scripture clearly teaches that we are somehow unable to "consider the cost", "reason it out", "choose to follow", or "have faith in Christ". We must believe that we are responsible and capable of doing just that.
I hope this helps. Like I said, I will be more than happy to clarify or eleborate on any of these points. There is sooo much more that could be said.
God Bless,
Bill