EricB, I really enjoy your replies. They're thought provoking and that is a really good thing. I have to mention though that work prohibits me from posting like I want to, or in a very timely manner. My time was so short this morning I just couldn't reply to your earlier post as I thought I should. So I'm going to move on to this one as I have time now. I don't like hard things at all, I have a family full of unsaved people whom I deeply love, and it's very troubling to know that they are not in Christ. I don't see that is in my favor in anyway, other than God might use my testimony to point them to Christ at His good pleasure so His name would be glorified. It's a hard thing to know my son is at this moment an enemy of Christ by his nature, and I don't like that. That troubles me to sleepless nights, it runs through my mind constantly, but in the end it is not in my hands. I find rest in the fact that when I was a drunken drug addicted blaspheming atheist, God had mercy on me when I wasn't looking for mercy. God made Himself known when I didn't want to know Him. At the very moment I curled up in a ball in my bathroom and wept because the burden of sin was so great, Christ on the cross finally made all the sense in the world. I prayed to God that night that I would die in my sleep, but the next morning I woke up alive and well. It was the most horrible experience of my life. But that took me back to the cross, and as best as I knew how at the time, I repented, put that little mustard seed of faith I was given in Christ and picked up a bible. There isn't an easy way to do that. It was a hard thing. Pride was the first thing to go. Then after that all hope of any effort of mine to change the truth disappeared. I did not make a decision, nor did I humble myself, but I was humbled. Looking back it definatly was the worst feeling ever, but now in light of Christ, it was the best thing to ever happen to me, though at the time I would have begged to differ. I rest in that amazing grace that was given to me when I wasn't looking for it. I pray every night that my son would go through the same. I pray every night that all my family and friends would be saved. But in the end it's not up to me, but it's up to Christ. I pray that the Spirit would move on them as He moved on me. That's my rest, that's why I can sleep at night, because in the end it's up to Him to seek and save. I cannot in good conscience tell them anything else, but what is right and what is true. To do so, would be a sin, and IMHO, a distortion of the very Gospel that saved me. I side with Paul when he said, "I will not frustrate the grace of God, for if righteousness comes by works of the law (or of anyone but Christ Himself for that matter), then Christ died in vain." It's not merely an issue of me wanting all of you to become Calvinists, or me being hateful because you don't see things the way I see things, but it concerns me that from what people say on here, such things are misunderstood. You are my brothers and sisters, our Head is Christ. It's a very important thing. I CANNOT in good conscience state otherwise. If salvation is attained or retained by anything but grace alone through faith alone in Christ alone, then it IS a serious problem. There are some who say that non-Calvinists are not saved, I'm not one of those people. Grace overrides that. In my puny mind, I can't comprehend it, I can't wrap my mind around it and understand it clearly, but I believe it. If it did come across that way I sincerely apologize, you just have to know that I think the doctrines of Arminius and Pelagius are half truths at best and blasphemous lies at worst. The dependence of those doctrines on man's will is at very least robbing God of His due glory and at most a damnable heresy. I don't know which but I cannot in good conscience profess them and call them truth or say anything other than that. I hope you might understand where I'm coming from now. I really do love you all as brothers and sisters, though it may not seem that way. To God be all the glory.
Grace and Peace to you ALL in Christ,
Dustin