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Can one have a good reason to commit suicide?
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Suicide is most definitely a sin. So is lying, porn, stealing, and refusing to obey God.
I've been at the point of suicide twice in my life. On both occasions, God would not let me do it. I don't struggle with suicide anymore. Other things, yes. But the desire to kill myself is gone.
Do you "harbor" a demonic spirit? Not if you are a Christian. A demonic spirit cannot indwell inside of a Christian. Only the Holy Spirit does that.
Can a "spirit" oppress you? Yes. But it cannot dwell inside you if you are saved.
I've seen you, Plavious, on another forum. You are welcome here, and if you stay here at the BB, please take counsel when offered to you.
My prayers are that you find a church in Cameroon.
I've been at the point of suicide twice in my life. On both occasions, God would not let me do it. I don't struggle with suicide anymore. Other things, yes. But the desire to kill myself is gone.
Do you "harbor" a demonic spirit? Not if you are a Christian. A demonic spirit cannot indwell inside of a Christian. Only the Holy Spirit does that.
Can a "spirit" oppress you? Yes. But it cannot dwell inside you if you are saved.
I've seen you, Plavious, on another forum. You are welcome here, and if you stay here at the BB, please take counsel when offered to you.
My prayers are that you find a church in Cameroon.
Christina1
Member
First, let me just say that the feelings you are feeling are valid and important to listen to and there is nothing wrong with you for feeling this way. Our emotions contain information and you need to find out why you're feeling this way and where these feelings came from.
I can relate so much to your question because I struggle with similar feelings.
What you're going through is the consequence of living in an extremely unhealthy society. You are probably one of the sane ones.
Please listen carefully.
When you feel these feelings focus on something that makes you feel just a little bit better. You can do this by the hour if you need to.
Each and every hour you can connect with something that brings you joy.
Let me ask, what brings you joy?
And maybe that question is too much to ask at this time. Maybe joy seems so far away that there's no way your mind can begin to answer it. And if that is so, then ask what can I focus on in this moment? In this moment, what can you focus on?
You can always decide to kill yourself later. But right now, in this moment, what can you focus your attention on so that you feel just a little bit better? Use this method.
Anytime you feel these feelings, you can always tell yourself that you always have the option to commit suicide later, but for now, in this moment, you can choose life, and focus on something that makes you feel better, even if it's just a little bit better.
God loves you. You wouldn't exist if he didn't.
Ultimately, we have the freedom to take our own lives. But the question is, should we? Should we use our freedom that way? If we did go through with it, and we looked back on our lives, would we regret that decision in hindsight?
Your life is yours. God gave it to you. I have no right to tell you what to do with it. But I'm here to tell you that this is one of those permanent decisions. If you go through with it, then you can't come back.
I'll keep you in my prayers.
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Christina1
Member
One of the things that makes life worth living is to love and to be loved in return.
Do you have people in your life who you love?
Do you have people in your life who love you?
Find those people. Seek them out.
*Hugs*
When I feel horrible about my life, I like to listen to this:
Do you have people in your life who you love?
Do you have people in your life who love you?
Find those people. Seek them out.
*Hugs*
When I feel horrible about my life, I like to listen to this:
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Plavious
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Thank you for such an explicit explanation, for you time and love. Thank you for you prayers.
At this stage, my life will be more miserable if I live. Maybe he can call me home earlier. It is painful to be in misery but more painful to be rejected by your own, the pain i feel is more emotional that physical. It pierce like the bite of a crab.
Plavious
Member
I have people I love so much but non of wishes to see me. Visiting them will be the end of my life. To them I am bring curses to their home. To them, the fact the my father was a Christian was an abomination and I am an outcast.
My great grandmother suffered from Cancer, and prayed earnestly that she had suffered enough and for the Lord to take her.
But still she lingered on, providing witness only to her care giver, her granddaughter. That girl, her "little Nell" was my mother. We (my mother's six children) all were raised in a "Christian home" and we all were baptized, professing our faith in Christ, at that time and forever after.
We cannot see the full impact our our lives, while we are living. And I, like many other believers, hope to die with a minimum of suffering.
I have not (yet) been tested as to my faith that I shall honor God with my service to my last. All I can tell you, that is my plan as it is my understanding of what God wants me to do.
May God bless you and comfort you with the knowledge His grace is sufficient for you.
Van
But still she lingered on, providing witness only to her care giver, her granddaughter. That girl, her "little Nell" was my mother. We (my mother's six children) all were raised in a "Christian home" and we all were baptized, professing our faith in Christ, at that time and forever after.
We cannot see the full impact our our lives, while we are living. And I, like many other believers, hope to die with a minimum of suffering.
I have not (yet) been tested as to my faith that I shall honor God with my service to my last. All I can tell you, that is my plan as it is my understanding of what God wants me to do.
May God bless you and comfort you with the knowledge His grace is sufficient for you.
Van
Christina1
Member
Those people are from your past. You have to find new friends. You have to find your spiritual family. Wherever you go in this world, you will find people who care about you and people you care about.
For now, I think you have to leave those other people in the past and embrace the new people that God will bring to you in this season. I know it's a hard thing to do because I also know the emotional pain that comes with estrangement.
I know it seems like America is a magical place compared to Cameroon but remember we are people, too. Our society isn't perfect either and neither is our culture. We have our own set of challenges and struggles that we face, too. Our world is a fallen world. And it's a hard one to live in sometimes no matter who you are and no matter where you're from.
Christina1
Member
Emotional pain can sometimes be worse than physical pain.
Do you have access to a psychologist or a therapist or a pastor who you can talk to about this?
Plavious
Member
Presently, BB is my church and family. I long for a physical friend and family.
I would suggest finding a good Baptist or Bible Church
Plavious
Member
The situation here is difficult and different. Since 2016, the whole place is deserted because of the ongoing Anglophone crisis. Schools, churches, no market etc.
You know all of my life I asked God, why am I here?... There have many times in life when I could have been pushing up daisies... When it comes time God will take you... There have been so many miracles in my life and the following is just one... Suicide?... I'm here for a reason, because God could have taken me at any time, hear my Vietnam War Story!
I was raised in the Primitive Baptist Church since the age of seven, and came with my parents when they joined... I was born in 1946 and had a war time experience in Vietnam in 1966 with the Marines... Nineteen out of our Twenty-one heavy tanks got stuck in four feet of mud... We got hit while I was asleep outside on the back of our tank... Eye witnesses said a mortal round exploded 15 feet above my head, our tank commander came flying out as all hell broke loose, he thought I was dead and I should have been... We lost three tanks and six men and if not for the grace of God, I could have been the seventh... I came back from Vietnam without a scratch because God had better things in store for me... So when someone tells me God can't save a man, I tell them you don’t know my God… Two years after I got back I joined the church I helped in the construction of when I was twelve, the church I grew up in at the age of 22… At the age of 57, because of death of 99 percent of the brethren, the church had to close its doors… The nearest church of our affiliation was over 100 miles away… I decided to let God lead the way and I’m glad I did… Though no longer with my people I’m still with the people of God… Still serving God at the age of 77 and I guess when God decides to bring me home, he will… Although for some reason he keeps me around, a miracle, when I should have been dead in Vietnam.
This is just one of the miracles and when others tell me God does not exist, I tell them I've seen his face because I've seen his grace, who love and cares for one so insignificant as me... Brother Glen
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Plavious
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Jesus made this promise “Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. … For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds” (Matthew 7:7-8).You know all of my life I asked God, why am I here?... There have many times in life when I could have been pushing up daisies... When it comes time God will take you... There have been so many miracles in my life and the following is just one... Suicide?... I'm here for a reason, because God could have taken me at any time, hear my Vietnam War Story!
I was raised in the Primitive Baptist Church since the age of seven, and came with my parents when they joined... I was born in 1946 and had a war time experience in Vietnam in 1965 with the Marines... Nineteen out of our Twenty-one heavy tanks got stuck in four feet of mud... We got hit while I was asleep outside on the back of our tank... Eye witnesses said a mortal round exploded 15 feet above my head, our tank commander came flying out as all hell broke loose, he thought I was dead and I should have been... We lost three tanks and six men and if not for the grace of God, I could have been the seventh... I came back from Vietnam without a scratch because God had better things in store for me... So when someone tells me God can't save a man, I tell them you don’t know my God… Two years after I got back I joined the church I helped in the construction of when I was twelve, the church I grew up in at the age of 22… At the age of 57, because of death of 99 percent of the brethren, the church had to close its doors… The nearest church of our affiliation was over 100 miles away… I decided to let God lead the way and I’m glad I did… Though no longer with my people I’m still with the people of God… Still serving God at the age of 77 and I guess when God decides to bring me home, he will… Although for some reason he keeps me around, a miracle, when I should have been dead in Vietnam.
This just one of the miracles and when others tell me God does not exist, I tell them I've seen his face because I've seen his grace, who love and cares for one so insignificant as me... Brother Glen
I have already asked myself if God is real or not, if God exists, if God loves me, and wants me to know Him? God had to reveal Himself to me. Not only did he answer the question but he eliminated all my doubts.
From the scripture, he announced Himself when He created the universe. The Bible says, “Since the world was created, people have seen the earth and sky. Through everything God made, they can clearly see His invisible qualities—His eternal power and divine nature. So i have no excuse for not knowing God” (Romans 1:20).
God went even further to reveal Himself when He sent His Son, Jesus Christ, to earth. Christ was human but also divine. Jesus declared He is God and then backed up His claim in many ways. He shared Himself with thousands of people during His ministry, and again to hundreds more after His death and resurrection.
In my search for truth, I focus more on my effort on Jesus. I discovered he loves me and has a purpose for me. My worry is " how will he allow me to go through all these?"
In 2016, I was butchered on head, leg and stomach. I was in the hospital for year and God healed me. In 2019, I was shot by Islamic fighter advocating for a Muslim state after I was torture for days. They knew I was death but days later, I walked up and miraculously is serving it till date.
Like a month ago, the pain so so excruciating. I took different medications, more than 50 tablet. All the pain killers at my disposal, I drank them with intention of committing suicide but nothing happened
It is not the first time of attempting suicide, I drank bleach before but didn't die. I have also taken rat poison. I almost did same yesterday.
I am just useless, fraustrated and helpless. Images are graphics to show.
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No you are not useless, in fact your testimony and your resilience in clinging to life needs to be used as a model for Christian resistance to the onslaught of evil… so you must not think of throwing away your life. Believe me someone will notice and perhaps emulate your courage. Honor the Lord, walk with that cross if necessary & and be a living testimony to our Christ (who conquered death, conquered sin for our salvation. I will pray for you!
Plavious
Member
Oh Lord, give this person the strength, the stamina & the courage to face the day to day trials that is facing him… so that he displays and emulates our Savior Jesus.
Make no mistake, this is Day to Day Spiritual Warfare you are facing… be strong, face the day with courage…there are unbelievable rewards that await you… God cares for His children.
Are you homeless and what are your options to escape physical danger…are there any?Oh Lord, give this person the strength, the stamina & the courage to face the day to day trials that is facing him… so that he displays and emulates our Savior Jesus.
Make no mistake, this is Day to Day Spiritual Warfare you are facing… be strong, face the day with courage…there are unbelievable rewards that await you… God cares for His children.
Plavious
Member
Honestly having a home is not my priority. If it is the well of God, let him help me to Equatorial Guinness why I can start any lucrative activity or even get a job to be able to feed. I wish God can appear to me in the form of bread. If it is not his wish, I wait of him. I know he is not man that h3 should lie neither is he the son of that that he should change his mind.
Apart from my wishes he has a better plan for me and at an appointed time I will see his face. I am in pains but I remain in the palm of his arms.
Just a suggestion, what about the Red Cross or any Church with the ability to help you… like Catholic Charities?