Actually your position is the exact position of Calvinism. You believe Jesus Christ makes a person believe as you plead the example of Paul, in your view, being forced to follow Jesus Christ.
There is absolutely no warrant for you or I or anyone to receive any mercy, yet Jesus Christ intervened, this is an act of mercy and forgiveness. So Paul is no exception to mercy and forgiveness.
Are you suggesting that you merited your own salvation and Paul did not?
In addition to your position being totally illogical, you have the word of Jesus Christ Himself on this topic which you have never been able to address, you simply ignore what He has said...
"He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God....
He that believeth on the Son hath everlasting life: and he that believeth not the Son shall not see life; but the wrath of God abideth on him."
No its not. And if anyone were to state that I or the Catholic church said we merited our own salvation they are guaranteed LIARS.
See we don't prioritize salvation, we understand that every single soul is precious to God.
Same chapter you mentioned:
John 6
36“He who believes in the Son has eternal life; but he who does not obey the Son will not see life, but the wrath of God abides on him.”
To obey is what? Love God and Love Neighbor.
If I told two folks trust the driving instructor and you will past your driving test. One listens to the instructions and follows them, and the other Trusts and has faith and believes his instructor but doesn't actually do what is taught,
That second guy is going to run right into a tree. Oh well but I trusted and had faith in him says the 2nd guy why did I hit this tree?
I can find Love God and Love neighbor in every religion you can shake a stick at. Jesus had no problem finding it in the good Samaritan.
Romans 2
12For all who have sinned without the Law will also perish without the Law, and all who have sinned under the Law will be judged by the Law;
13for
it is not the hearers of the Law
who are just before God, but the doers of the Law will be justified.
14For when Gentiles who do not have the Law do instinctively the things of the Law, these, not having the Law, are a law to themselves,
15in that they show the work of the Law written in their hearts, their conscience bearing witness and their thoughts alternately accusing or else defending them,
16on the day when, according to my gospel, God will judge the secrets of men through Christ Jesus.
When we Christians are closer to looking like Nazis, we are doing it wrong. It certainly is with this Pharisee attitude of others.
John 10
37“If I do not do the works of My Father, do not believe Me;
38but if I do them, though you do not believe Me, believe the works, so that you may know and understand that the Father is in Me, and I in the Father.”
John 14
11“Believe Me that I am in the Father and the Father is in Me; otherwise believe because of the works themselves.
^If I were a Calvinist these statements would be totally nuts, Because these statements indicate that a person has the scope of understanding rather getting light switch flicked on by God.
JOHN 14 verse especially smashes your challenge.
He doesn't say Believe in me or your toast. You wish he did, don't you?
Otherwise is option 2. Believe because the works themselves.
The works themselves is LOVE GOD and LOVE NEIGHBOR. This is the highest priority it is BUILT into the first commandment.
1 john 4
8Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.
The further you step away from love the more evil it is.
Anyone who can tell the difference between Love and God still has plenty still to learn about both.