Lately I have been in sin and I ask God to forgive me of that sin and I turn around and do it again. THis is the weakest sin I am in and it tears me down. Lusting is a bad habit, but when I walk through school my thoughts are filled with dumb things that I cannot control…When I come home from church my head is being attacked with lustful thoughts.
You are wise beyond years for recognizing your sins and wanting to free yourself from them.
I realize this is a most delicate matter, but as with all things, the more understanding the better when it comes to struggling in the internal war to be free from sin. I pray that you will be able to receive the spirit of my message as it is intended (words are so weak in conveying things of the heart):
1.
Temptations are part of the plan and to be expected. Regardless of whether God is trying us (i.e. like Abraham, et al) or Satan is really tempting us to be miserable as he is, all trials and temptations are nonetheless for our good. This doesn't mean, however, that we seek out trials or needlessly expose ourselves to temptation. We all get our fair share of trials and temptations in due time. Also, as already pointed out, we can be assured that no trial or temptation we encounter will be beyond our ability.
2.
All sin is bad. There is no such thing as a sin we can intentionally hold on to and still enjoy the blessings of the new covenant. To turn from one sin we must be willing to commit to turn from all sin. Of course willing to do something and actually doing it are very different things, but without at least mustering the willingness to give up all sins, we are intentionally rebelling against the knowledge the Lord has granted us. This, obviously, doesn't demonstrate that we trust in God over the flesh. Therefore, it is critical that we examine our desires and eliminate any desire to commit even the least of sins. Remember that there are sins of omission and commission. Simply striving to maintain the desire to eliminate sins of commission doesn't automatically mean that we will have desire to eliminate sins of omission. In other words, refraining from doing bad, doesn't necessarily mean that we are doing good.
I think you will notice that there are usually three basic attitudes among Christians when it comes to dealing with sin: (1) I don't want to be that good (i.e., it isn't cool to be a square after all), (2) How far can I go until it is actually sin? (i.e., I want to play with fire, but I don't want to be burned) (3) I don't want to sin the least sin of all, I want only to do the will of the Lord 24/7. Attitude-1 doesn't work because with an attitude like that, we are really saying we don't want God to turn us into a new creature. This attitude also indicates that we think that as long as we do more good than bad we will somehow balance the scales of justice in our favor so that when it is all said and done God will still let us into His presence. It is also an attitude that indicates that we think we can live with some intention to sin as long as we are willing to repent later. Repentance is not a license to sin intentionally. It is always extremely hard to sin intentionally and then later find sincere remorse to repent. Attitude-2 is wrong because it typically falsely assumes that there are certain boarders to sin. For example, sex. A lot of youth want to know how far they can go before committing sin. This attitude usually gets to the point where they think as long as they haven't had actual intercourse, then they haven't committed sin. If you have attitude-2, you will typically entertain some lustful thoughts when then come your way rather than rejecting them right away. The problem with this attitude of course is we keep trying to extend the borderline and go further and further until we crash and burn. Yet, we know that Jesus taught that the borderline is in the heart. We need to learn to reject lustful thoughts the moment they enter into our heart. Attitude-3 is the only attitude that works. We can only show true remorse and experience true repentance by indicating to God that we are willing to do only what He would have us do and reject all sins completely. Again, this doesn't mean that we won't keep making mistakes and sinning. Yet, without fostering attitude-3, we never really experience a complete change in heart, and be default, we will instead embrace attitude-1 or 2.
3.
You can control what you think. While it is true that you can’t control the way everyone in your school talks and dresses, you do have a lot of control in the things you will be exposed to. Just as you can choose to take care of and properly maintain your body by refraining from bad foods and eating nutritious ones, wearing sunscreen when out in the sun, getting regular exercise, brushing your teeth, going to bed early and waking up early, et al., you can likewise take proper care of your spirit. You can choose to feed your spirit good or bad TV, movies, music, magazines, Internet sites, books, cartoons, comics, anime, jokes, video games, et al. You don't have to watch or read or listen to anything that feeds your lusts. Do all within your power to reduce the bad influences in your every day life. Likewise, do all within your power to increase the good influences in your life. Listen to good music, watch good TV, read good books, have good conversations, memorize hymns and scriptures. Hymns in particular are very powerful in driving away lust. The trick is to make all your decisions in advance. That way you will not have to make your choices in the middle of a temptation. For example, you can make a commitment to sing or hum a favorite hymn whenever a lustful thought enters your mind. However, if you wait until you have a lustful thought to choose how you will react, chances are you won't be able to think straight enough to react the correct way. The good news is that just as your physical reflexes can be quickened and strengthened via exercise, you can likewise quicken your spiritual reflexes through spiritual exercises. The core of spiritual exercise lies in sincere prayer. Sincere prayer is that in which we indicate to God that we want to conform to the Lord's will in all things, and is followed up by a sincere effort to understand and apply the principles of the Gospel in our everyday life (i.e., not just on Sunday or when we are at church or among fellow church members). For example, let's look at the principle of loving one's enemy. We hear a lot about this in our churches, but we seldom really try to apply it by praying to God for the ability to love those that anger us, tease us, do things that we feel are wrong, et al. We often assume that because it is a family member, for example, it is okay to hate them and fight with them. If God has given you a mean mother or father or brother or sister or classmate, praise God and realize the situation for what it is. It is your chance to get a spiritual workout. As you strive to refuse to resist unkind acts made toward you and instead strive to return kindness and love in thought, word and action, your spiritual muscles will grow like you never imagined
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Never allow yourself to have idle time. This is such a big one for our day in age where machines and modern innovations have blessed us with the time to do more than ever before. However, the Lord has not blessed us with this technology so that we can be couch potatoes. That is not to say that we can't relax from time to time. However, to think that we can simply idle around for large blocks of time each day and still lay claim to be striving to abide in the doctrine of Christ is ridiculous. Jesus taught us that serving others was indeed serving him. There are so many ways to serve our fellowman. We can pray for them, write to them, and help them. Pure religion is getting out and serving others. We start with our family, and then as our ability to love increases we move on to others. Just as you move from the light barbells to the heavier ones as you get physically stronger, we keep including more and more people in our circle of love as we get stronger spiritually. There are so many widows and orphans in our society that we can never really argue that we have free time to "do our own thing." Contrary to popular opinion, doing too much for Christ is impossible and never overbearing. It is the holding back that makes us tired and stresses us out. Why? Because it is literally like trying to hold on to the gates of heaven and hell at the same time. It is much easier to go all out evil or all out good than it is to be lukewarm and hold back in an attempt to save ourselves. The key is, as Christ taught, to lose ourselves in the service of others. Now, this doesn't mean that we don't pursue personal goals and aspirations. We should work hard, study hard and play hard (healthy and recreation is not idleness). These all have purposes in our overall development as well. So, by all means, set specific, realistic goals for achievement in your studies and other activities. However, never let yourself get so caught up in achieving a particular goal that you miss the chance to serve when the opportunity presents itself. For example, imagine you are late for church and come across and elderly lady who obviously needs help lifting something heavy. The Sunday School answer is to help the lady even if it means we will be late, but how many of us really live our lives this way. Church going Christians often get so caught up in doing church related things (or work or school related things, et al), that they miss the forest for the trees. There are many good things to be about, but if our focus is not on doing what God would have us do at any given point in time, we will miss the forest for the trees. It is just a matter of time. Just as Noah could have reasoned that there were many good things he could be doing aside from building an ark, we must be careful to not reason ourselves out of focusing on what the Lord's will is for us right now. Living the Gospel will seldom be convenient to our daily schedules and goals. That doesn't mean we toss out the baby with the bath water by ripping up our goals and schedules. It does mean that we need to have our hearts continually turned to God. This is real repentance.
Believe it or not this is just a starting point. The more you apply the more the scriptures will be unfolded to you and you will be inspired in how to better deal with your particular circumstances and challenges. As you focus on doing what you have already been impressed upon by the Spirit in your scripture study and prayers, you will nourish and strengthen your spiritual muscles and thereby refine your spiritual reflexes to better fight off temptations.
My prayers are with you.
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[ September 22, 2003, 10:06 PM: Message edited by: Dr. Bob Griffin ]