This election cycle has done a number on me. Since July, I have been ripped apart inside knowing that there is not a godly candidate at ALL! Not even a decent one. Or a truthful one.
I would lean towards voting for Trump and then he would open his mouth.
I went back and forth with this as I said since July.
Harris was
out as a choice for me. No way. No how.
I had made my decision to write-in someone and was at peace with that after I saw Trump's Truth Social account from back in August where he joked about Harris and Hillary and "blowj*bs". He is so gross and juvenile and NOT an adult.
Then I saw where Harris mocked Christians who came to her rally and told them that they were at the wrong rally. and how everyone there cheered with her and clapped against the Christians.
I said to myself. She CANNOT go in. What if my vote for someone else makes her slip in by a hair?
So Monday morning at 8:45 am, I cast my vote for Trump.
I got home just in time to see his little trolling of Harris by putting on a fake and scripted McDonald's show.
AND I saw his comment about the late Arnold Palmer and how large and impressive his GENITALS were. And what a physical specimen of a MAN he was.
Arnold Palmer's children are very upset. As they should be.
What actual and real man in his
right mind SAYS something like that publicly? What KIND of man? An unhinged one.
America is under the judgment of God. I have believed that for years. And we are getting what we wholeheartedly deserve.
Trump got my vote yesterday. But he will never have my support or respect. The only thing he will get from me is my prayers. He has had that and now that will be all.
I feel unclean for voting for him and am in turmoil all over again. I should have done what I first decided and not voted.
Pray for me to move on. I've had headaches for the past few weeks and am not eating properly nor getting proper rest over this.
Pray for me. I have no one to tell in person or private because all my people believe him to be the most wonderful candidate. That has contributed to my feelings of despair.
I need to find a new hobby or task or direction and just let this go.