That's too bad.
You see, God hasn't cursed you. You've cursed yourself. You've made the decision that because life isn't how you want it to be then God must have done this to you and that he owes you a better life to prove he is God.
I have epilepsy. The drugs I take to control it will probably kill me in the end due to the liver toxicities they produce. I've never thought of my life being cursed.
My brother, like you, has Asperger's - along with a host of other problems - being legally blind, hard of hearing, having a severe speech impediment, and an IQ of 70. He loves to go bowling. He's on a team with some very kind and compassionate people. My parents take him. Last week he bowled a 224!! Not bad for someone who is legally blind.
There's a lot of days that his life just flat out sucks and he can get depressed. I know that.
And God isn't going to take his problems away. I know that, too. But he doesn't believe that his life is cursed. He is saved and loves the LORD.
I could list for you scores of people who have a life far worse than yours and God has allowed this to happen for His reasons and they accept that and move on.
I know that people with Asperger's have trouble communicating sometimes, but could you just tell me what is the absolute worst thing about your life right now - what exactly is it that you feel you've been cheated of? I won't judge you.
