Bro. rwc...
You are starting with 'you' and then ending with God. You keep saying 'I this' and 'I that, &c. Salvation starts and ends with God. It matters not if your heart was softer than others. There are no levels of hardness where God would not save if someone's heart if it gets past that hardness level. The unregenerates' hearts are corrupted by sin, period. No matter if we're talking about Hitler's, Ellen Degeneres', or mother Theresa's hearts. They were are corrupted by sin, and because God did not work upon them, sadly, they died lost...not Ellen, she is still alive.