OldRegular
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HP: This is a hard testimony to just read once and let go. I cannot help but wonder what sin it was that had such a hold on you that you were not willing to let it go. Nothing short of a guilty conscience would keep one up like that at night. That must have been a miserable time in your life, knowing what to do but unwilling to do it.
Even till the age of 17 you were still struggling with the same sin it would seem from your own testimony. There is something about sin that is true without exception. The longer one persists in a certain sin the more sins that develop in ones life. By seventeen your conscience had to be working overtime considering the knowledge of the truth you once had concerning salvation from sin. Sin simply never stays stagnate. It grows and festers.
Now you finally meet one with a message that you seem to get some relief from. Security in Christ, that’s the ticket. Now I can be secure in spite of the sin is what your testimony ‘appears’ to say to me. I do not see any testimony of deliverance from the problem that had existed for years causing the guilty conscience, just a new cover for an old and still prevalent problem with the guilt from a besetting sin.
Tell me I am wrong. Tell me that your new found friend and his message delivered you from your besetting sin(s) and that now you live free from the sins that pained your conscience, having been delivered from the power of those sins to enslave you. Have you been delivered or have you just found a doctrine that applies suave to the guilt of sin?
HP
You are deliberately twisting what MACE16 said in his testimony. Read it again! He said nothing about being beset by a particular sin that he was not willing to let go. He simply stated that; well let him tell you again in his own words:
Originally Posted by MACE16
Hey, Pilgrim. Well, here is my experience. I was saved at the age of 13 in an Assembly of God church. Now, I was taught that Christ had forgiven my sins, but from that point on, I had to live the life. Part of living the life was not sinning. So, in my 13 year old brain, I thought I had this. First week goes by, I think a few things I should not have, and I say a few things I should not have. At this point, guilt gets to me, as it should. Well, instead of being told about confession and repentance to restore fellowship, I am now told that I have backslidden and need to be restored in the faith.
So, I go find a sinner's prayer and read that, convinced I needed to be saved again. After about a year, this grew quite wearisome. I was saved, then lost, saved, then lost, etc.. There is no feeling, to me, that is worse than laying down at night trying to make sure you have recalled all of your sins in fear that if they are not confessed, I may very well wake up in Hell. In a sense, Christ was not a Savior at that point, He was a cruel taskmaster ready and willing to whack me at any time for messing up. My obedience was given out of fear, much like the obedience a beaten dog gives.
Long story short, by age 17 I met a Baptist youth minister through an athletic league. A mentor relationship grew out of this. I would speak to him about my struggles with this particular subject. Eventually, through my own study, I came to the realization of my security in Christ. How wonderful it is to serve a loving, forgiving Father.
My obedience to Him is now out of love, not out of fear. This changes my outlook on everything. I still maintain a very healthy fear of God, and I think all believers should. But it is a wonderful feeling, to lay my head down at night at realize that I am His and nothing can ever change that.
Since I have yet to meet only one sinless person, Jesus Christ; MACE16 states very succinctly what everyone who does not believe in Eternal Security must go through in their "Christian" life: "So, I go find a sinner's prayer and read that, convinced I needed to be saved again. After about a year, this grew quite wearisome. I was saved, then lost, saved, then lost, etc.."