(1) We all agree we can make choices. No one is saying that we cannot choose what we want. As such, that is not the issue. The issue is whether or not our choosing is a libertarian free will choosing. I have said this numerous times, but it does not seem to be sinking in.
Yes, you are deceiving yourself. If God imposes what you believe, then that is not your choice, it is God's. Even a child would understand this.
The problem with Calvinists is they see everything from the assumption that God does not give man a choice. Then they are confronted with hundreds of scriptures that clearly show man has a free will and can make a choice. You see God literally begging men to be saved. Why would God do that? If God can simply force the man to believe, then why would this be necessary? But Calvinists cannot let go of this false doctrine, so they must twist the scriptures to try to fit this falsehood.
2 Cor 5:20 Now then we are ambassadors for Christ, as though God did beseech you by us: we pray you in Christ's stead, be ye reconciled to God.
Paul is literally begging men to be saved here. That makes no sense if man cannot make his own free choice.
Rom 10:21 But to Israel he saith,
All day long I have stretched forth my hands unto a disobedient and gainsaying people.
Here God with stretched and open arms calls his people to be saved, but they are disobedient. Disobedient to what? To God's will, for it is God's will that all be saved.
Jer 35:15 I have sent also unto you all my servants the prophets, rising up early and sending them, saying,
Return ye now every man from his evil way, and amend your doings, and go not after other gods to serve them, and ye shall dwell in the land which I have given to you and to your fathers:
but ye have not inclined your ear, nor hearkened unto me.
The Bible is full of verses where God is calling men to repent and come to him. And the Bible clearly shows that men refuse to listen.
Now Calvinism actually tries to teach that it is God's will that these men do not listen or repent. Calvinism teaches that before time God has decided to leave these men in a lost state without the ability to repent. But then God goes out and calls them over and over anyway. Ridiculous.
And I have showed you verses that say "own voluntary will" and "freewill". I mean, what does it take to convince you? If God's holy scriptures will not convince you, then no argument from someone on this forum will. You need to quit listening to false doctrines of men and hear what the scriptures plainly say.