Greeting
First I would like to wish you the very best of health, to all here. I write this letter for I am somewhat in need of help, for at this moment I do not know who can I go to with the information and the knowledge that have gathered of the last 35 years with a person unknown, which you call the Spirit or many spirits.
My story or my testimony is a Very, very long journey; I do not know how to begin.
Please bear with me for I am very overwhelmed with sorrow, and my grammar is not up to speed what is happening and family is very painful and very personal, but also with some gladness as well.
I am beginning with little history of my background so that you may understand what is happening to me today?
-The story begins with my parents as a young boy, at the age of three.
At that time my life took a dramatic change, at that age I almost lost my life, I don’t know all of the detail; some parts of my memory are lost.
At the age of three years old I was either thrown out the window or unsupervised by my mother, since those days my life changed dramatically, which lead to separation from all of my family, as I grew older my father began to drink there was little love, it changed my brothers and sisters at the age of eleven to the age of sixteen.
My father abused me very badly and my family as well. I was very afraid of my father at a young age. Not having a loving father as any normal family.
As the buildup of abuses and also with all that has happened I began to fall into sin.
At the age of sixteen, I could not take the abuses but also the fear I had with my father.
My father weakened my character so much, that I could not function in school or in life.
At the age of sixteen I confronted my father and had a cost of being cast out of my family, I guess it’s like being exiled never to return to my home.
I had to leave my family because of all the bad things that he did to me and my brothers and sisters. I was born in Utica NY but was raised in South Bronx.
From all that time I‘ve wondered and lost eight years, it was like time stood still for me, wondering, looking for answers to my life.
In between those years I lost two brothers; one from Aids at age of 27, and the other at 32 from HIV. My father and mother got divorced, my brothers and sisters got separated and went their own ways but also with emotional problems as I’ve shown you in my life with my father.
My father died at the age of 53; his habit became his death, but with that he did to me, I forgave him before he passed away.
In between all of what has happened in my life, I found the time for a family of my own, but just as I had any problem in my youth, I had also in my marriage.
At the age of 30 things started feeling a little better, I had very little education, but with a new family, things started to get a little better. In all my life I had never picked up a bible, and in my youth, I found my way into a church but never understood religion. I was totally lost in what was God or Jesus.
Why do I give you a little of my life history? So I hope that you can give me some answer or understanding of what is happening a little after of my life problems which at the age of 25 is when strange spiritual things started very strange dreams, Please bear with me for I am looking for an answer for what am I experiencing.
One of my families was trying to get me close to Christ, but not knowing I am living as a gentile
I already didn’t know much but always had an urge to do good but always found myself falling into sin, but even that I was lost as well. Days went by, weeks went by, and months went by until things again started to go down for me again, if didn’t know any better I felt I was being watched.
This was very overwhelming so much I didn’t understand because it was spiritual, I went back to my older family member, the one that trying to get me close to Christ, to help me in what was ever happening to me, was very powerful, that this would bring me down to my keens.
The detail of what happened to me is very long, but I knew one of my older family member because he is so much in the Lord I figure he could give me some understanding to help me.
His belief or domination is Pentecostal Church; in that, it gave me some understanding, for
This is Much, much deeper.
I began to search and ask many different people from many different cultures and backgrounds, my quests of understanding, but not looking yet in the bible for my answers because I could not read very well. It was much harder for me when my daughter was getting sick.
My daughter was experiencing the same, spiritual at age of 5 years old.
My spiritual dreams since then became more pronouns, after a little from 9/11 in all that I have investigated; now I would pick up the bible and begin to search the Scriptures for answers.
Throughout my investigation accumulating some knowledge for a foundation to understand the spiritual meaning of what is happening to me and my family as well.
My reading became a little better, in which I had no school but after all my afflictions began self-taught because of my father abuses; my last school was the Roman Catholic school, though my parents were Catholic but I’m not.
Even that was very strange to me, which play a very important part in my life.
I have not yet mentioned the most important part of this story of my entire life, which I will explain.
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