I don't see a personal relationship with Jesus.
It's a bit difficult ( but not impossible ) to see the fruits of the Spirit over the Internet , especially when one is passionately discussing doctrine.
But there are some key indicators that can and do shine through:
" A good man out of the good treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is good; and an evil man out of the evil treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is evil: for of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaketh." ( Luke 6:45 ).
So, over time a true believer's speech will match what's in their heart ( instead of what's in their flesh that within, dwells no good thing ( Romans 7:15-25 ), and their demeanor will
more and more conform to the image that God has predestinated ( Romans 8:30 ) them to...the image of Jesus Christ.
For example, instead of a hatred and ridicule of people ( which stems from fleshly pride and conceit ), they will refrain their lips from guile, and address others in a respectful manner in meekness and sobriety...fully knowing that their salvation was of God, and not of themselves.
In other words, the fruits of the Spirit ( Galatians 5:22-23 ) will begin to shine through.
After all, they are a "work in progress" and are entirely dependent upon the Spirit to win their battle with the flesh ( Galatians 5:16-17 ).
That said, a personal relationship with the Most High is defined by what the
He says will be the evidence of it... not what
we think should make up "what a Christian is" by what we may have been taught from a pulpit, by someone who may or may not be "philosophizing" or " waxing romantically":
Faith ( Hebrews 11:1 ), the kind that endures to the end of one's life ( Matthew 24:13 ) instead of not falling away back into the world and its ways ( Matthew 13:18-23, 2 Peter 2:20-22 ).
Belief of His words ( John 8:43-47, John 10:27 ).
Chastisement ( Hebrews 12:1-17 )...God will not allow His beloved children to continue on in sin without getting their attention is some way and correcting them.
Continuing in His word ( John 8:31 ).
Growing in both grace and the knowledge of God ( 2 Peter 3:18 ).
One thing I've come to see over the course of 41+ years of being a sinner saved by grace, is that experiences are
not what objectively govern a true believer...God's word and God's Spirit are ( Romans 8:9-17 ).
Feelings and
subjective viewpoints are not to be trusted.
The salvation of one's soul is a very serious matter, and should never be taken lightly or with an attitude of " I can do anything I want, because I'm saved", or "I can treat people any old way I want, because I'm forgiven of my sins ".
I've been there, done that and worn out the T-shirt.
May God, in His mercy and grace, show you many things in His word, sir.