Rock Bottom

[Regulus]

Some of what I am going to write may not sit well with some of you, but please understand that I'm not here to cause offense.

I’m going through the roughest time of my life. My wife and I are divorcing. I’m planning on moving out of my state when the whole legal process is over, and I’m basically going to be starting over.

I had been absent from my local church for a while because I couldn’t mentally or emotionally commit to attending on a regular basis while everything was going on. This Sunday, I decided to go alone without her, and it was an emotionally draining experience. The only thing I felt during the service was a sense of judgement because I failed to hold my marriage together and the vow I made before God is now broken. I felt devastated looking at the empty seat next to me. Unfortunately, I don't plan on going back. On top of that, I don't pray much anymore, and I am unable to focus when I try to read the Bible.

Recently, I started giving serious thought to whether or not I wanted to continue being a believer. The answer I came to is yes—I will continue to believe; however, it will most likely be what James calls a “dead faith" since I no longer have the strength to serve or have fellowship with others.

I don't know what all of this means for my eternal destiny, but I guess I'll find out one day.

 

[Salty]

Reggulus,
I went thru a tough time in my life as well.
maybe not as bad as Job!
Have you talked to your pastor?
if that would not work feel free to PM Dr. Bob or myself.

 

[MrW]

Some of what I am going to write may not sit well with some of you, but please understand that I'm not here to cause offense.

I’m going through the roughest time of my life. My wife and I are divorcing. I’m planning on moving out of my state when the whole legal process is over, and I’m basically going to be starting over.

I had been absent from my local church for a while because I couldn’t mentally or emotionally commit to attending on a regular basis while everything was going on. This Sunday, I decided to go alone without her, and it was an emotionally draining experience. The only thing I felt during the service was a sense of judgement because I failed to hold my marriage together and the vow I made before God is now broken. I felt devastated looking at the empty seat next to me. Unfortunately, I don't plan on going back. On top of that, I don't pray much anymore, and I am unable to focus when I try to read the Bible.

Recently, I started giving serious thought to whether or not I wanted to continue being a believer. The answer I came to is yes—I will continue to believe; however, it will most likely be what James calls a “dead faith" since I no longer have the strength to serve or have fellowship with others.

I don't know what all of this means for my eternal destiny, but I guess I'll find out one day.

Regulus, I went through what you are going through. It was indeed the roughest time of my life. It was horrible. I didn't want it to happen.
Here I am, actually several decades later. I prayed and asked God to please send me a Christian wife, who loved the Lord Jesus, and if she did, then she would love me, too. He did! We've been married all these years and such a blessing! The best favor the first woman I married (will not call her a "wife") was divorcing me. I didn't realize it at the time. Yet if she had not, I would never have had my genuine wife, whom loves me and whom I love. God hates divorce. So do I. Yet I admit there are situations where it is the only option. My life was in two parts--darkness and light, and the light has been these wonderful years I have been married to my real wife. Stay with the Lord Jesus. And remember this--it's better to happy being single than being miserable married. If God sends you a wife, excellent--if He doesn't, stay single.

 

[xlsdraw]

Spiritual Valleys don't last very long unless you let them. I can tell you that you need to be running to Jesus and not away from Him. The most miserable man on the planet is a Christian that's running away from the Lord. I bear the scars of making that mistake. Biggest mistake of my life. I had gotten to the point that I despised myself, constantly feeling under pressure. Miserable constantly. Taking anxiety medicine for years not realizing the pressure was coming from the Lord. Yet, when I finally couldn't take it anymore, utterly broken, I asked the Lord to forgive me and He did. I could literally feel the weight lifted off of me during my prayer of repentance. The Lord restored my joy of salvation. That was 9 years ago.