I had been wrestling with conviction for quite a while. When I was 14 years old my family and I went to church 3 to 4 times a week. My parents were very dedicated Baptist we took part in most everything. It seems that I have known about Jesus all my life as I was growing up. I knew the gospel and had to memorize it every day . This I had no choice in. My parents made sure that the Bible study came first before everything else. I resisted yet I went along with what they made me do.The night I was saved the Holy Spirit was working on my resistance and I was convicted of it as well as all my other sins. The Holy Spirit made me sorry for my sins and I confessed them and asked the Lord to save me. I cried like a baby because He took all my sins away. It was a release of the past I was in slavery for. The evidence of this is that my whole self changed. My attitudes, planning, friends and desires. Not to say that I'm perfect because I'm not but I'm not the same as I was before.No claim from THIS Calvinist that "asking is saving yourself" (that argument fails the "smell test").
I wonder if you have any speculations on why YOU were convicted of your sins when you heard the Word and so many are not? Or why you were convicted WHEN you were convicted and not any of the previous times sin was discussed with you?
MB