"Rejoiceth not in the iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth"
What do I know to be true? That there is a creator. That he created me for a specific purpose. And that I have free will to embrace the truth. That which I know to follow, yet as a natural sinner, I easily fall into temptation in ways the enemy knows me to fall into. I have become too weak to fight against myself and my deceitful heart. I had forgotten to stop trying to reach perfection. In sin, I am in a momentary haze, forgetting everything but myself, what I want, and what I feel. That is not something that God calls us to rejoice in. That is not the truth but lies. A Christian does not rejoice in sin or condone it for oneself or another. Temptation is one thing, but addiction is another, more extreme and traumatic form of sin. One that ties you to the bondage of your past and disregards the redemption power of Jesus Christ and his sacrifice. That is where I am left at a crossroads where I can't go my way and at the same time, go God's way ("No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon." -Matthew 6:24) I would have to throw away true fulfillment and purpose, a friendship and deep love that I shared in my youth, in my innocence. And it would mean denying Jesus as my Savior and God as my Father. I have come to remember that my story is meant to be written by his hand and not mine. So, I wish not to throw away what the most powerful love in this world has to offer and give. God is love. That is something I should remind myself of every day. And healing takes much more than a day. Both literally and spiritually speaking. And I write all this as I go through a sinus infection. God shows us much, even when we are at our lowest. And he loves us just as much yesterday and all the days before. I say all this to express that as I continue to learn about love in its truest form, I should not blind myself to the truth of love. I should embrace and rejoice in it, just like all truth.
-[In all things you do, do it for the glory of God]
What are some of your thoughts?
What do I know to be true? That there is a creator. That he created me for a specific purpose. And that I have free will to embrace the truth. That which I know to follow, yet as a natural sinner, I easily fall into temptation in ways the enemy knows me to fall into. I have become too weak to fight against myself and my deceitful heart. I had forgotten to stop trying to reach perfection. In sin, I am in a momentary haze, forgetting everything but myself, what I want, and what I feel. That is not something that God calls us to rejoice in. That is not the truth but lies. A Christian does not rejoice in sin or condone it for oneself or another. Temptation is one thing, but addiction is another, more extreme and traumatic form of sin. One that ties you to the bondage of your past and disregards the redemption power of Jesus Christ and his sacrifice. That is where I am left at a crossroads where I can't go my way and at the same time, go God's way ("No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon." -Matthew 6:24) I would have to throw away true fulfillment and purpose, a friendship and deep love that I shared in my youth, in my innocence. And it would mean denying Jesus as my Savior and God as my Father. I have come to remember that my story is meant to be written by his hand and not mine. So, I wish not to throw away what the most powerful love in this world has to offer and give. God is love. That is something I should remind myself of every day. And healing takes much more than a day. Both literally and spiritually speaking. And I write all this as I go through a sinus infection. God shows us much, even when we are at our lowest. And he loves us just as much yesterday and all the days before. I say all this to express that as I continue to learn about love in its truest form, I should not blind myself to the truth of love. I should embrace and rejoice in it, just like all truth.
-[In all things you do, do it for the glory of God]
What are some of your thoughts?
