OK then explain how I, who did not believe, could come to belief? Your saying it was my own choice, but I did NOT believe....one does not believe who broke every commandment, who violated Gods laws, who did not give a rot. I am sorry but I do not see it. And dont go telling me I had some genesis of belief deep down there somewhere because it wasn't there. I was born & raised an RC & that meant I was really an functioning atheist, I never picked that up in 32 years & when I met my wife it was then convenient to become what she was (for the sake of the children) but I never picked up a bible & studied it nor did I attempt to teach it to my family like a Christian man should. I did things only for me.....I worshiped me, I fought for me, I stole for ME, I lied for ME. God played no part in my life otherwise I would have modified my behavior. I worshiped money, drugs, alcohol, fornication, cars & growing my career.
Until that eventful day 2 + years ago when the HS confronted me, I had no interest in God & now He is all I live for. So you tell me because I have really racked my brain to think of a time I was a believer & you know what, I CANT!