SpyHunter,
"I Feel Your Pain"...
Gideon used a fleece to discren God's Will...
And, he wanted an absolute assurance of the answer.
So, much so that he asked for a "Reverse" 'fleece'...
His confidence was that God was interested in what he was about to do and He trusted God was able to make his will known...
Very few people I know are patient enough to good through the time and steps to *really* know God's Will...
Americans are a very impatient people...
Yet:
Luke 21:19 In your patience possess ye your souls.
Romans 5:3 And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience;
Romans 5:4 And patience, experience; and experience, hope:
Romans 5:5 And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us.
Hope is a vital ingredient in "Faith" without which it is impossible to please God...
Isaiah 28:16 Therefore thus saith the Lord GOD, Behold, I lay in Zion for a foundation a stone, a tried stone, a precious corner stone, a sure foundation:
he that believeth shall not make haste.
In the NIV it says...
Isaiah 28:16 So this is what the Sovereign LORD says:
"See, I lay a stone in Zion,
a tested stone, a precious cornerstone for a sure foundation;
the one who trusts will never be dismayed.
This ties "Trusting" with "Patience" and Romans (among others) Ties Patience with Faith...
Isaiah 40:31 But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
And, sometimes we don't "Wait" because we are afraid of the answer we will get...
Or, deep in our hearts we already know God's Answer...
With all my heart I want to preach... I have a vision for a church... Know who I'd ask to be on my staff...
But, I know myself too well...
It could be Delusions of Granduer, it could be misplaced Pentecostal Ferver, who knows...
So, my "Wait" is based on: With the Commission will come Provision...
1 Corinthians 9:7
Who ever goes to war at his own expense? Who plants a vineyard and does not eat of its fruit? Or who tends a flock and does not drink of the milk of the flock?
I know for a fact though...
That my First Calling is To Christ...
My Second Calling is to my Wife...
My Third calling is to my Children...
1 Timothy 5:8 But if any provide not for his own, and specially for those of his own house, he hath denied the faith, and is worse than an infidel.
God has and will provide for my family through me. And, has and will provide for my family when I am unable to do so...
And, I have no doubt that He can and will provide the funds for a pastorate when and if that is His Will...
In the meantime...
I keep Praying and Dreaming.
Mike Sr.