Repentence - I have been sorry for my sin and not wanting to do it again (drinking) but then a day, a week, 3 months later return to it. Several years ago God I think God spoke to me and told me to get serious or He was going to 'let me go'. Not sure what that meant - 'let me go'. But I was frightened, did not sleep for several days then went forward but since I felt I had already accepted Christ at 16 I wanted to be publicly baptized in obedience. Unfortunately, 6 months later a started drinking again. And continued and drifted away from God. Then I think God stuck me with a terrible sickness with high fever over 105 and I almost died. That really got my attention and since I have not consumed alcohol and have tried to live a holy life, but I still lack assurance and have been terrified at times that I am separated from God. Is it possible that God has let me go and there is no hope for me?
Be assured, my friend, that if you put your trust in Jesus Christ for your salvation then you are eternally secure.
John 6:37 All that the Father giveth me shall come to me; and him that cometh to me I will in
no wise cast out.
John 6:38 For I came down from heaven, not to do mine own will, but the will of him that sent me.
John 6:39 And this is the Father's will which hath sent me, that of all which he hath given me
I should lose nothing, but should raise it up again at the last day.
John 6:40 And this is the will of him that sent me, that every one which seeth the Son, and believeth on him, may have everlasting life: and
I will raise him up at the last day.
Beware of those who are fruit inspectors and those who will tell you that if you fall back into sin that there is a chance that you were never saved to begin with.
If you recognize your need of Savior because you are a sinner.
If you trust that Jesus Christ is God and has beed crucified, buried and rose from the dead to pay for your sin, Then You Are Saved.
Trust in Jesus Christ for your salvation and He promises that He will never cast you away no matter what you do. His Salvation is not conditioned on your behavior. Run from those who use guilt to keep you insecure.
Surrender your drinking problem to Jesus and trust Him to work in your life to change that.
Your eternal destiny is set. Even you cannot change that.
In Christ,
Dave