Gruss Gott, xdisciplex!
God has heard every one of your prayers. He has heard your cry in the night, seen you at your depth and has rushed to your side. While you watched for him in the miraculous, He came to you in the ordinary. He sent you doctors. He sent you the best of science and hundreds of years of research into the human mind. He sent not one option for treatment but many. If you fear the side effects of one try another. I know your doctor cannot possibly know everything about you but your doctor is in the business of healing, not harming. You have a responsibility not to hold back any critical information about yourself. I've read up on Celexa. Some of the side effects are serious - even fatal! Make sure you've given the doctor all the information.
While God wants his children to be healthy, His greater concern is that we are holy. The text below has been a help to many over the years. I have had the opportunity to do in-service training at several social service agencies working with counselors, aides, and clinical staff who often find themselves at the end of their collective ropes.
Elijah was a powerful man of God. Days after calling down fire from Heaven he cowered in a cave in the wilderness asking if he could die. The Lord provided several important things for Elijah namely food and rest. God also gave Elijah a place to vent his pain. The prophet decried the faithless and concluded he was the only one who could understand what was going on in his heart, mind and body.
God allowed Elijah his season. Seasons come and seasons go. When Elijah's season passed the Lord continued to ask, "Why are you here?" God never once responds directly to Elijah's hurt. He reminds Elijah that - in spite of Elijah's claim to the contrary - he is not alone. And He reminds the prophet that there is much more to accomplish for the Lord.
xdisciplex, your brothers and sisters in the Lord surround you with their prayers petitioning your Creator to bring relief to you. Wait upon the Lord. I pray that this "testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing."
(James 1:3-4 NASB)
So He said, "Go forth and stand on the mountain before the LORD." And behold, the LORD was passing by! And a great and strong wind was rending the mountains and breaking in pieces the rocks before the LORD; but the LORD was not in the wind. And after the wind an earthquake, but the LORD was not in the earthquake. After the earthquake a fire, but the LORD was not in the fire; and after the fire a sound of a gentle blowing. When Elijah heard it, he wrapped his face in his mantle and went out and stood in the entrance of the cave. And behold, a voice came to him and said, "What are you doing here, Elijah?" 1 Kings 19:11-13 NASB