I would recommend XDX to stop the medication in that case if it has the problem with side effects. It might have happened like that because God wants him to rely only on Jesus Christ.
Let me tell you my personal experience.
I found the whole world is sinful and wicked, and the people are so much selfish that they don't care about others. I found no justice anywhere in the world. Even the churches were empty and were running the business only. The more problem that I found was that I myself was almost the same as others too ! The only difference was that I didn't reveal it outside and I was successful in covering up for myself. Then I found myself was detestable.
At the end I started to cry What the hell is God doing now, if He exist truly? Is He enjoying watching the tragedy of the people as a spectator?
If I meet God, I was very much confident to win over God! because I had plenty of evidences showing the problems of the world and that God was not doing anything. Finally I concluded that the whole world must be blown away, and I should be a forerunner in blowing away as an exemplar.
I wanted to scatter away myself and therefore chose suicide bombing on the downtown Seoul, with some letters asking the whole world to follow me.
I already experimented a bomb some years ago, I put the dynamite with my own device for ignition which was to ignite the black powder by filament with battery. The battery would turn on the filament of an electric bulb, then it heats up to 4,000 F, then black powder explode and the dynamite would explode. I put the bomb under a persimmon tree, then it exploded. It was a huge explosion and about 100 neighbors gathered around my house. My father had a hard time. Therefore making a bomb was not a difficult job for me.
I started to prepare the bomb to explode myself. ( This is my personality, Once I decided on something, no one can prevent it !)
I was searching the raw materials on the chemical market. At that time, one serious question hit my mind !
" Are you sure that you can justify your logic in front of God?, Are you sure that God has no solution and He is just a spectator? Are you sure that your next life would be better than that of this world?, Have you confirmed enough that God has done nothing for this world? "
I was just a church-goer to a certain presbyterian church.
Eventually I decided to check with an independent church which seemed to be sincere to me. I went to the church soon. After the service, I intended to debate with the pastor. But during the sermon, the pastor asked the people to read Galatians 2:20. Then I realized I was crucified with Christ! I lived no longer. The person who should be blown away was already crucified at the Cross. That was what God has done already! He has done for me and for the whole world a tremendous job! I didn't have to commit suicide! I felt a big burden on my back was flying away from me! On that day, I read the bible till late night, re-confirming the Bible verses, whether such messages are only in Galatians 2:20 or in any other verses. I wept again and thanked God for the truth. I didn't know it was the salvation or being born again. But some years later, I realized it was the experience of the salvation. Since then my life was changed. I gave up many things on this world, but I don't regret about it. Jesus was my spiritual savior plus physical savior from the cruel explosion of myself.
I could have become the first Suicide-Bomber in the world, but failed!
