Man I have problems with having faith! This is it! And these verses only make it worse!
Doubt and mental health (Neil T.Anderson)
I'm afraid I'll lose control.I'm afraid of my father, of God, of what people will think of me.
I'm fraid "it" will catch up with me.I'm afraid my parents will embarass me.My heart will stop.I'm afraid I'll throw up
in front of everybody and people will talk about me.I'm afraid I'll jump off the balcony.
I'm afraid I'll die. I'm afraid I won't.I'm not good enough for my friends.I'm not good enough for God.
I'll be found out.I'm afraid of the shadow on the wall. Someone's right outside my window waiting, I'm afraid of myself.
I'm not talented enough.I'm not pretty enough.I'll panic.I won't get everything done.I'll choke.I'm inadequate.I'm afraid I'll go crazy.
I'm afraid they'll lock me up and no one will care anymore.They won't like me if they really know me.My heart will be broken.I'm not rich enough.
I'm not strong enough.I'm afraid I have no self.I'm afraid I might fail.What if I succeed? What if it doesn't happen? What if it does? Wha am I so afraid?
Such are thoughts of a person who doubts everything.
This was called doubting mania in the first half of the last century.It was described as an extreme self-consciousness and preoccupation with hesitation and doubt.
Today the diagnosis would be anxiety disorder and/or obsessive-compulsive disorder.Anxiety disorders are the number one mental health problem in the world,followed by depression,which is common cold of mental illness.
Depression is often the result of having struggled with obsessive worry and doubt.
Obsessive doubters have more of a mental struggle then a behavioral problem. In other words, they are more obsessive than compulsive.
The mental obsession is usually regarding issues that can't be proved to their satisfaction.
Rather than make the choice to believe and live according by faith, they are limited in what they can do by their uncertainties.
The bible is certainly not silent about such mental problems. The old testament records: Elijah came near to all the people and said:
How long will you hesitate between two opinions? If the Lord is God, follow Him, but if Baal, follow him."
James writes:
5 If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him.
6 But let him ask in faith, nothing wavering. For he that wavereth is like a wave of the sea driven with the wind and tossed.
7 For let not that man think that he shall receive any thing of the Lord.
8 A double minded man is unstable in all his ways.
Such verses are a challenge for most of us, but they only increase the anxiety when read by people who have obsessive thoughts.
Have I believed enough? Did I ask in faith? Does God hear me? Am I a christian?
The personal misery of living i doubt is probably worse than the frustration of living with those who do. Hence, the doubter's dissatisfaction with his doubt
is as great and widespread as the doubt itself.