Whew! God's Protection is to Be Praised!

[Yeshua1]

I bristled at "fool". I have loved people who have fallen into messing with that stuff. Maybe the term fool is not always meant as a mocking word.

There are people who lead this stuff with a heart to gain power and to harm, but some of the followers are purest of heart and my childhood heroes.

I meant fools as in not knowing the bible well, and being gullable, and risking death each time do that!

 

[Quantrill]

I am in a slum that is quite large and actually the geographic center of a large city, not at the edge. It is a weird place like no other on earth, I think. I joke that I could write a great science fiction story about a space station or colony, using this place as inspiration.

To mention the name of where I live will just make people assume the opposite of what I face, because this part is not the parts that make the news or are talked about by people that talk to people outside of here. My relative has been here awhile and knows nothing of this place except to fear and shun it, and to speed through the main roads at speeds that kill my neighbors, leaving us with one of the highest pedestrian death rates in the country.

We are over 230 days without rain, this week. We are so far past breaking the record, and it just keeps going on and on. The people behind the gates still have water running down their sidewalks, while we are rationing the water that we pay for by feeding coins into the "water mill", or just doing without.

The wealthiest people here are the Hispanic people. They own all the businesses and everything is catered to and in Spanish. There are other races here, but they are the poorer people and not trusted by the Hispanic people. To be white is to be doubly distrusted. I understand why.

God placed me here. I feel on track. I am growing as a Christian and as a writer, and my PTSD in healing in ways that I never expected. We don't know what we don't know. I am learning all sorts of what I did not know that I was supposed to know.

This place is crumbling and FILTHY and DRY and foreign, and wild in ways that cannot be imagined within the boundaries of what is imagined as "urban American". I barely see my relative, but when I do, I teach him about his city in ways that he would rather never know. With knowledge comes responsibility. I try to leave him alone. God placed ME here, but I do not think I am supposed to mess with what God is doing with him and his peers at all. I feel a strong urge NOT to impact them, even with knowledge of their own city. At least not yet.

Sounds very dangerous and that you need much prayer for safety and basic human needs.

Quantrill

 

[kathleenmariekg]

I meant fools as in not knowing the bible well, and being gullable, and risking death each time do that!

Yes, that is why I said I need to rethink that word as being more than a mocking word. You made me pause and that is a good thing. Words are funny things: they are often wider than we are in practice of using them.

 

[kathleenmariekg]

Sounds very dangerous and that you need much prayer for safety and basic human needs.

Quantrill

In a pandemic, it is safer here than where I was. I am so grateful for being delivered from where I was, and that is continuing to deteriorate. I want to be wrong, but I have been predicting this winter since I fled my city last spring. When my relative and a friend heard what was happening through the phone, they said it sounded like a "Jack Nicholson movie." They booked me a flight for 3 days later, told me to clean up what I could behind me, but to get on the plane no matter what. And that is what I did.

This place is wild, but the place I left was a death trap. I have developed some claustrophobia: I don't think I will ever be able to live in a high-rise again, or even work in one. I need to be able to see the door outside, even if it leads to wild.

God is in control. I feel him most when I am in the worst situations. The Israelites wandered the desert for 40 years dependent on daily manna to teach them to rely on God and shed the last of their PTSD and Stockholm Syndrome and slave mentality.

God has a habit of taking people out of their cities and placing them in wild deserts. LOL. I feel as safe as some of the children in Exodus must have felt. I try to keep this child-like, at this stage, and will work up from that foundation.

 

[Quantrill]

In a pandemic, it is safer here than where I was. I am so grateful for being delivered from where I was, and that is continuing to deteriorate. I want to be wrong, but I have been predicting this winter since I fled my city last spring. When my relative and a friend heard what was happening through the phone, they said it sounded like a "Jack Nicholson movie." They booked me a flight for 3 days later, told me to clean up what I could behind me, but to get on the plane no matter what. And that is what I did.

This place is wild, but the place I left was a death trap. I have developed some claustrophobia: I don't think I will ever be able to live in a high-rise again, or even work in one. I need to be able to see the door outside, even if it leads to wild.

God is in control. I feel him most when I am in the worst situations. The Israelites wandered the desert for 40 years dependent on daily manna to teach them to rely on God and shed the last of their PTSD and Stockholm Syndrome and slave mentality.

God has a habit of taking people out of their cities and placing them in wild deserts. LOL. I feel as safe as some of the children in Exodus must have felt. I try to keep this child-like, at this stage, and will work up from that foundation.

I praise God for the way He has moved you and the peace you have with it.

Yes, God is always in control.

Quantrill

 

[Yeshua1]

Yes, that is why I said I need to rethink that word as being more than a mocking word. You made me pause and that is a good thing. Words are funny things: they are often wider than we are in practice of using them.

Its the same as when Bible states to us that the fool in his heart states that there is no God!