I didn't mean to imply that you couldn't. I was making commentary on what has been my typical experience with Calvinists who claim to once have been 'Arminian.' And that has been that they are not aware of the scholarly non-Calvinistic Baptist approach...but have reduced it to what is known as the 'foresight faith view'....A view I find as equally unsatisfactory as the Calvinists do.
Do you mean that you used to believe you can lose your salvation? Because even non-Calvinistic baptists typically don't hold to that view either. I know I don't. YES, I used to believe a believer could loose their salvation.
I understand why you might think that, as I used to believe likewise; however I'd like you to consider another perspective.
Which of these two people is worse in your estimation:
1. A guy who hates a creator who first hated him?
or
2. A guy who hates a creator who first loved him?
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1. A guy who is born unable to willingly respond to the creator's appeals?
or
2. A guy who is able to willingly respond, but freely chooses to rebel, suppress the truth and turn away from the geniune appeals of his creator?
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1. A guy who does horrible, grievous sins without repentance who was born unable to do otherwise.
or
2. A guy who does horrible, grievous sins without repentance who was born able to do otherwise?
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1. The insane man with a mental disorder who murders another?
or
2. The sane man with a sound mind who maliciously chooses to murder?
I think a strong case can be made that #2 is the worse guys in all these situations and that guy better reflects the unbeliever of our system, than the unbeliever of the Calvinistic system. So, on what basis do you conclude that Calvinism does a better job of 'putting man in the dust'? In reality you have given all unbelievers a really good excuse for their unbelief. They don't believe because God hasn't granted it to them...they rebel without repentance because they were born unable to do otherwise. They were born unloved, rejected and unchosen by their maker and destined to die and go to hell. What better excuse is there than that? .... The God loves everyone and Christ died for everyone gospel has rocked multitudes to sleep because they use it is as an excuse to put the day of salvation off to a more convenient time. They think God owes them at least one chance to be saved. On the other hand when you preach to people that God owes them nothing and they are nothing but worms and that He can either save or damn them this will cause sinners to know that the God of the bible is to be feared and not to be trifled with. Also it gives hope to a sinner that God delights to show mercy to black sinners through His Son.
I understand that too, as I had a similar testimony, but are you aware of the alternatives to your particular view of 'arminianism' (non-Calvinism) that may be able to bring you even closer, as is my testimony now? ....My cup runneth over already, I could not stand anymore in this mortal body.
We non-Calvinists also believe in the Sovereignty of God. We just don't apply it in such a way as to undermine the responsibility of man:... I don't undermine the responsibility of man either.
"God Sovereignly decreed that man should be free to exercise moral choice, and man from the beginning has fulfilled that decree by making his choice between good and evil. When he chooses to do evil, he does not thereby countervail the sovereign will of God but fulfills it, inasmuch as the eternal decree decided not which choice the man should make but that he should be free to make it. If in His absolute freedom God has willed to give man limited freedom, who is there to stay His hand or say, 'What doest thou?' Man’s will is free because God is sovereign. A God less than sovereign could not bestow moral freedom upon His creatures. He would be afraid to do so." - A.W. Tozer, The Knowledge of the Holy: The Attributes of God