No I speak as though lying to those in authority over you is a bad thing. I speak as though lying and sneaking behind your then wife's back is a bad thing.
You choose to put your self under that churches rules (the history of your reasoning is here for all to see)
And even with that choice you still wouldn't (couldn't?) do what they asked. You didn't love your then wife enough to not drink. Drinking was more important than your role as husband to live your wife sacerficially. Again this is all in the history here.
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No reason to dwell on the mistakes of the past.