Everyone can make their own decision. At present you are lonesome...and you know it.
God loved the world by sending His Son that whoever believes in Him will have everlasting life. Jesus committed no sin. But men esteemed Him as afflicted by God. He was abused. He did not return the abuse but put His trust in God and God's righteousness. Jesus bore our sins in His body on the Cross, He became a curse for us. The reason was so that we might die to sin and live to righteousness. The cross was God reconciling man to Himself. Man is reconciled to God through Christ's death and men are saved through His life. Our salvation is God's righteousness manifested apart from the law. Men must be born again, made new creations, dead to the flesh and born of the Spirit. God is just and the justifier of sinners.
I do not seek to join a sect. That is how we are different.
I share the faith of the majority of Christians, bound in the Blood of Christ. That is enough for me.
You hold a fairly new belief, one that has been around for centuries but young in comparison to traditional Christianity.
I hope you find comfort in your Reformed books and confessions. It is an interesting and rich albeit short, history. More than that I hope the gospel shines through your error just enough that others may see Christ.