You have always wanted to censure those who disagree with you, but no, brother, I am not going anywhere.
When you slander and insult the brethern it does not make you look better. It does the opposite. And there is no need for it.
Christians disagree. That is fine. We can learn through each other's disagreements.
You hold a minority view within Christianity, so you will encounter more people (if you interact within Christianity as a whole) that disagree with you than agree.
Don't let this be an opportunity to sin. Don't attack the brethern just because they disagree with your view.
Within Calvinism there is a movement to move towards a more biblical position. So even if you restrict your interactions to the Reformed some will disagree with you.
Disagreement is not a bad thing. As Spurgeon pointed out, Christianity as a whole is better for it.
You have a heart to share God with people. But for some reason you attack brothers when they disagree with your views.
The first thing a Christian needs to do, before evangelism, is seeing to their own heart. It is not right that you set yourself against the brethern.
You are called to better things - gifted to do better things. God saved us to do good works that He has prepared for us to do. Not to attack our brothers, but to engage with them in the work of the kingdom.
Like I said, Christians disagree. If you cannot handle others disagreeing with you, if you have to resort to false accusations, insults, slandering, trying to "expose" brothers, trying to "defeat" them, "shut them down", silence them, etc. then perhaps it would be best for you to take a break and prayerfully consider your walk.
There is no harm in that. And before you mistake my post as an insult, it is not. Your post is not fitting given your calling. There is no harm in seeking help, or in simply taking some time off for yourself.
