Had you been alive before, like Lazarus?
John 11:11 He said these things, and after that, he said to them, “Our friend, Lazarus, has fallen asleep, but I am going so that I may awake him out of sleep.”
Yes, like Paul the law had put me to death. At the time I was in the USAF and after reading the OT law (Leviticus) my guilt came down on me and I DIED, when I got to the Book of John, I heard His voice and I came alive in a moment of time and I knew it and I will never forget it even in eternity.
Romans 7:9 For I was alive without the law once: but when the commandment came, sin revived, and I died.
Look,(in my case) I know I had nothing to do with it. I was put to death by the Law and trying to run away from God, nevertheless I was compelled to keep on in the scriptures until The Spirit brought me to Jesus Christ who forgave my sins and gave me life eternal and the promise of the resurrection.
John 10
27 My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me:
28 And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand.
29 My Father, which gave them me, is greater than all; and no man is able to pluck them out of my Father's hand.
30 I and my Father are one.
I don't have to try to figure out what came first, last, before, after, whatever, I am alive in Him and He did it.
I said "in my case" because we are all different and He meets us where we are.
Ya, ya I know I'm a semi-pelican (or something).
HankD