I feel like my tension lies in the fact that through all the OT and NT the common thread (along with the coming of Christ) is that God wants all His people to come to saving knowledge of Him through Christ.
VERY good! You are right. God does and WILL have ALL HIS people come to a saving knowledge of Him.
That is Scripture. "All the Father Gives me WILL come ..."
"Joshua 24:15
King James Version (KJV)
15 And if it seem evil unto you to serve the Lord, choose you this day whom ye will serve; whether the gods which your fathers served that were on the other side of the flood, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land ye dwell: but as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord."
"2 Peter 3:9
King James Version (KJV)
9 The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance."
"Acts 16:30-31
30 And brought them out, and said, Sirs, what must I do to be saved?
31 And they said, Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved, and thy house."
I feel we see the sorrow in Paul in trying to get Agrippa saved
" Acts 26:28-29
28 Then Agrippa said unto Paul, Almost thou persuadest me to be a Christian.
29 And Paul said, I would to God, that not only thou, but also all that hear me this day, were both almost, and altogether such as I am, except these bonds."
"John 3:16
King James Version (KJV)
16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life"
(I know the member 'The archangel' posted that the greek disagrees with the idea of whosoever; however I respectfully disagree with his position - after reviewing even his own arguments - i still agree that the KJV scholars best represented the view of the original writings for the English readers)
All these are GREAT verses - but be very careful that you do not appoint the unregenerate heathen as saved into these verses. I agree that when one as Agrippa is not saved there is a bit of sadness. But also, it shows that persuasion does NOT bring salvation. Mental acceptance does not bring salvation. Salvation is given not an acquired skill.
For instance: Archangel gave a great Greek translation work of John 3:16. Historically, "whosoever" did NOT mean what the modern definition casts. In that, and with the appropriate Greek that Archangel so wonderfully worked to show, the verse is directed specifically to believers.
Perhaps you will want to PM him and visit with him personally and test his work for yourself.
All through the OT, we see God having to punish Sin and sending out prophets to scream to the people to come to the God of Israel - this would be redundant if they were already predestined (I understand you disagree with me and probably say something along the lines of 'God does as he sees fit', and I can't argue with that - I just don't think God needs to be redundant for Redundancy sake)
No one is stating that corporate Israel of the OT were saved. If you look carefully, you will see that just as in the time following Christ, INDIVIDUALS are saved. God has always dealt with individuals and then to the mass.
The ONLY time that there will be a corporate salvation is when the verse, "They shall look upon Him whom they pierced..." and at that point "All Israel will be saved."
Then we get to the NT and see Jesus preaching to the masses and bringing miracles to the people ; showing people that He is God and they turn away. I think if God truly loved the world as that quote from John 3:16 says He would have just made them all believe if that was His wish, but that's not love. No when we reach the bottom and realize we need to reach up and grasp the only hand that can pull us out, and understand that sacrifice do we understand love ; or have a family that has taught us rightly, or come to some point where we had to say, God is whom I will serve. Then we take our place as those who are saved - and the predestined promise for those who accept Gods free gift is an elect position in Gods kingdom ; not of our own work, but by Gods grace lest we should try and boast about it. No one gets a gift on Christmas and opens it and every body thanks him for opening the gift. No we all turn to the gift giver in thanks, That's why I dont think the Free will positional is man centered but it is so amazingly God centered, and there is a gift for everyone if they would simply receive it and lay hold if it. (Eph 2:8)
That God so loved the world does not negate that God is just and the justifier. Remember the Scriptures, "He came to His own and His own received Him not" is NOT an indication of ownership but of identification.
Jesus was a Jew and came to Jews, but they (the majority) did not receive him, but as many as did "He
gave the right to become children of God,
even to those who believe in His name, 13 who were born,
not of blood nor of the will of the flesh nor of the will of man, but of God.
Now I know it is the fancy for some to present salvation in terms such as "reach the bottom and realize we need to reach up and grasp the only hand that can pull us out,..." BUT the fact is that just is not found in Scripture. Look throughout the NT and you will find not one condition of conversion in which that is true.
The Scripture is CLEARLY stating that impossibility in contrasting those saved versus those who are unregenerate:
10 For to us (the saved) God revealed them through the Spirit; for the Spirit searches all things, even the depths of God. 11 For who among men knows the thoughts of a man except the spirit of the man which is in him? Even so the thoughts of God no one knows except the Spirit of God.(this agrees with such verses as "my thoughts are far above...")12 Now we have received, not the spirit of the world, but the Spirit who is from God, so that we may know the things freely given to us by God, 13 which things we also speak, not in words taught by human wisdom, but in those taught by the Spirit, combining spiritual thoughts with spiritual words. (agrees with verses such as, "For the sorrow that is according to the will of God produces a repentance without regret, leading to salvation, but the sorrow of the world produces death.")
14 But a natural man does not accept the things of the Spirit of God, for they are foolishness to him; and he cannot understand them, because they are spiritually appraised. 15 But he who is spiritual appraises all things, yet he himself is appraised by no one.
Do you see how this Scripture totally discounts the thinking that you stated? There is NO man centered salvation.
NOW, it is important that those who have gone through great trauma and are now saved do NOT discount that experience. That is part of the purpose and plan of God in which that person will be effective in the ministry.
Some, like the believing thief find that salvation comes to them at the "cross." And what a testimony to others that experience can bring.
Some, like the Saul find that salvation comes to them on the road of doing.
Some, like the centurion find that salvation comes following great natural and perhaps personal disasters.
Some, like young preacher Timothy find salvation comes during educational time at a mother (aunt, grandmother, father, grandfather, ...) knees.
BUT
ALL salvation from the first impulse of Godly conviction to the final glorification is by God through Christ.
For HE IS "the author and finisher..."
I want to add a personal note.
I want you to continue to grow in understanding and wisdom of God. Do not take this post as being critical, but of showing how even the ability of man to "reach up" is given by God, and is part of Salvation.