You are claiming to be God, sbg. Your understanding of grace is not biblical.
God is full of grace. He gives us what we don't deserve every moment of every hour. He took us out of deadness in our trespasses and sins, and he gave us new life in Christ our Redeemer.
Just as grace is not earned, grace can never be unearned, causing God to revoke his gift. If it were so, salvation would be by our own works, not by the good and gracious gift of God. Jesus would not have needed to die on our behalf. We could have worked our way to the mark through our own efforts.
But...that was not possible. We died in our sinful effort and fell short of the mark. We needed God to do what we could not, ourselves, do. We needed God to give us what we did not deserve. We needed God's grace, which is a gift from God, not from our works, so that we cannot boast of our efforts.
You propose a method by which you can boast. Added to this, you claim to be God by virtue of union with Christ. Both claims are heretical on your part.