Ah,the power of unregenerate totally depraved people having the wherewithal and personal strength to make such a momentous choice of their own free dead-in-sin will!
This is where Calvinism goes right off the tracks. The scriptures show that unregenerate men are able to do many things that Calvinists deny.
John 8:3 And the scribes and Pharisees brought unto him a woman taken in adultery; and when they had set her in the midst,
4 They say unto him, Master, this woman was taken in adultery, in the very act.
5 Now Moses in the law commanded us, that such should be stoned: but what sayest thou?
6 This they said, tempting him, that they might have to accuse him. But Jesus stooped down, and with his finger wrote on the ground, as though he heard them not.
7 So when they continued asking him, he lifted up himself, and said unto them, He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her.
8 And again he stooped down, and wrote on the ground.
9 And they which heard it, being convicted by their own conscience, went out one by one, beginning at the eldest, even unto the last: and Jesus was left alone, and the woman standing in the midst.
10 When Jesus had lifted up himself, and saw none but the woman, he said unto her, Woman, where are those thine accusers? hath no man condemned thee?
11 She said, No man, Lord. And Jesus said unto her, Neither do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more.
These scribes and Pharisee were unregenerate, we know this because they were trying to tempt Jesus that they might accuse him of sin (vs. 6). But we see in vs. 5 they could understand God's law. And in verse 9 we see that when they heard Jesus's words (God's word) that they were convicted by their own conscience. So, an unregenerate man can understand God's law and sin, they still retain a conscience, and they can be convicted by God's word.
Mark 10:17 And when he was gone forth into the way, there came one running, and kneeled to him, and asked him, Good Master, what shall I do that I may inherit eternal life?
18 And Jesus said unto him, Why callest thou me good? there is none good but one, that is, God.
19 Thou knowest the commandments, Do not commit adultery, Do not kill, Do not steal, Do not bear false witness, Defraud not, Honour thy father and mother.
20 And he answered and said unto him, Master, all these have I observed from my youth.
21 Then Jesus beholding him loved him, and said unto him, One thing thou lackest: go thy way, sell whatsoever thou hast, and give to the poor, and thou shalt have treasure in heaven: and come, take up the cross, and follow me.
22 And he was sad at that saying, and went away grieved: for he had great possessions.
This young man was unregenerate, but he sought out Jesus and had an interest in being saved. He did not hate God, but was very respectful to Jesus. He knew and understood much of God's word, and even kept God's commandments to a great degree as confirmed by Jesus himself in vs. 21.
We also note in vs. 21 that Jesus loved him, so God loves unregenerate sinners.
Gen 4:6 And the LORD said unto Cain, Why art thou wroth? and why is thy countenance fallen?
7 If thou doest well, shalt thou not be accepted? and if thou doest not well, sin lieth at the door. And unto thee shall be his desire, and thou shalt rule over him.
Cain was unregenerate, yet God said he was able to give an acceptable sacrifice and would be accepted if he did so. We also see that God said Cain could rule over sin.
So, Total Depravity as Calvinism holds it is completely false and refuted by much scripture. Yes, all men are depraved and sinners, but even depraved sinners can seek God, understand some scripture, do not necessarily hate God, can do works that are acceptable to God, have a conscience, and can be convicted by hearing God's word.
So, this is where you err, listening to the false unscriptural doctrines of men and not to what the scriptures clearly show. And I could show you much more, the scriptures clearly show that unregenerate men can make a choice to either obey or disobey God.