I remember my salvation and it was not my will nor did God change my will, my will is always the same seeks evil,I denied my will to follow Jesus and took on the will of God to repent and live.
It is funny how men think they came to Jesus by their will like they came up with it on their on without the prompting of the word of God which is His will not ours.
"It has already been proved beyond all controversy that free-will is nonsense. Freedom cannot belong to will any more than ponderability can belong to electricity. They are altogether different things. Free agency we may believe in, but free-will is simply ridiculous. The will is well known by all to be directed by the understanding, to be moved by motives, to be guided by other parts of the soul, and to be a secondary thing. Philosophy and religion both discard at once the very thought of free-will; and I will go as far as Martin Luther, in that strong assertion of his, where he says, "If any man doth ascribe aught of salvation, even the very least, to the free-will of man, he knoweth nothing of grace, and he hath not learnt Jesus Christ aright."
C.H. Spurgeon
Bold emphasis mine to simplifing what Spurgeon is saying
Matthew 26:42
He went away a second time and prayed, “My Father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done.”
Luke 22:42
“Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done.”
Matthew 6:
9 “This, then, is how you should pray:
“‘Our Father in heaven,
hallowed be your name,
10 your kingdom come,
your will be done,
on earth as it is in heaven.
Matthew 12:
48 He replied to him, “Who is my mother, and who are my brothers?” 49 Pointing to his disciples, he said, “Here are my mother and my brothers. 50 For whoever does the will of my Father in heaven is my brother and sister and mother.”
Luke 8:
19 Now Jesus’ mother and brothers came to see him, but they were not able to get near him because of the crowd. 20 Someone told him, “Your mother and brothers are standing outside, wanting to see you.”
21 He replied, “My mother and brothers are those who hear God’s word and put it into practice.”
John 6:
40 For my Father’s will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise them up at the last day.”
You are either doing your own will that leads to death or His will that leads to life eternal.
We are not going to receive a new heart without hearing and putting what we hear into practice
John 6:
45 It is written in the Prophets: ‘They will all be taught by God.’[ Isaiah 54:13] Everyone who has heard the Father and learned from him comes to me.
John 10:30
I and the Father are one.”
Matthew 11:29
Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
Regeneration before faith is ridiculous. Always hearing and never understanding, you will never understand until you put into practice what you are hearing.
James 2:26
As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead.