You keep talking about private interpretations and how personal opinions are their highest level. But then you talk about your private personal experience. it appears that your private experience has become your highest authority and overrules scripture.
I was taught by scripture and Apostolic Tradition together and believed it. But when it is confirmed by spiritual experience for me, it went from faith to confirmed knowledge.
Same thing happened when visiting a friend. I walked in and saw his baby son shining in an incredible light that was God’s light, with this familiar joyfulness surrounding him. That joyfulness I had experienced before when the catechumens are baptised, though I never saw that light.
I held my tongue because his wife was totally against anything religious and he was secretly converting to Jesus. She later divorced him for becoming Christian, total nother story, just say he suffered for Jesus from the start really.
My friend had forgotten to get something from the shop and I said I’ll go with. When we got into the car, I asked him when his son got baptised, he is shining like he was baptised or something.
My friend looked at me totally shocked, and asked how the hell I knew he was baptised.
I told him I just saw it, it was like the light and joy of heaven was blasting out of him.
He told me he, when his wife wasn’t looking, baptised his son in the bathroom just before I came by. He had been thinking about it for a while.
It confirmed his faith and mine.
I had been praying and fasting for years for this bloke that had died, he was a customer I made friends with, and I was very tired one night and didn’t want say the prayers, but kept going anyway.
Then I saw this angel looking at me, he bowed slightly and went down into a fog and smoke and there was an open area of fire. He went into the fire feet first and lifted a man from it and went up through the smoke and fog then above it. The man was shining like the baptised baby.
Jesus came down and held him and they went straight up into the light.
Then I was back kneeling in my room.
I see why Jesus loves us when we shine like that, it’s Jesus light, it’s beautiful beyond beautiful.
These things were confirmations for me, no one has to believe it, but I know by experience, what I formerly believed by Faith.
Generally I try to ignore experience and I am totally convinced that believing in pure Faith is far better. Far better to believe, and not have seen.
But these things are out of our hands, and we just accept it for God’s greater glory, He does things for a reason, just go with it and praise Him even more I reckon.
Surrendering to Jesus about things and leaving it totally in His Hands is far more powerful than urgent prayers in worry, worry is is antifaith and He doesn’t like it.