Morning all:
It is 71 here right now, and was a bit cooler this morning. It began raining shortly after Vivian called before leaving work. The rain was HEAVY, and the winds were very, very strong. It was a needed rain, though. After the initial blast, the rain tapered off to a slow, steady rain that lasted for about an hour or so. The temps fell over 20 degrees in an hour as the front moved through, but rose nearly 15 degrees after it's entrance into the area. It is supposed to be a bit cooler today with more rain. I'm praying that it will be a good soaking rain. The ground needs it. The creek beds around here are going dry in some areas.
Vivian is supposed to be off tomorrow, so, Lord willing, we will be leaving around 10am for Louisville, KY. I'm not sure if I'm going to call my birth father and wife and my 1/2 siblings in the area or not. It's really a tough decision. I haven't seen my 1/2 sister in over 15 years, and my 1/2 brother I haven't seen in nearly 20 years. I haven't seen Jess (my birth dad) since he came and saw us for one day in 1996, and I've talked to him maybe 5 or six times since then. I just don't have much to say to these people. Please pray that God will give me a peace about what to do. This might be the last chance I have to see my birth father alive because of his poor health, but each meeting with him before has been disastrous and has gone to the pressure point nearly every time. I have witnessed to him, and he at times seems like he's interested in God, yet at others he's as cold hearted as Pharaoh with the Israelites. So, as far a being a Christian witness to him, my conscience is clear. As far as being respectful to my father, well, didn't my "father" die in June 2000 of cancer? I mean, this man who lives across the river from Louisville let the man I knew as my father adopt me because he didn't want the responsibility of dealing with my mother and trying to work out visitation. He abandoned me for over three years. Am I really obligated to do or feel anything towards him in consideration?
Sorry for the rant....it's just been heavy on me. Viv is the same as me...after losing her mother this month, to one degree she says to contact him...to another she says not to. I agree with her on both counts!
Praise the Lord. Vivian's check was more than what we needed for the house payment! The Lord is good! We thought it was going to be less, but I had miscalculated. It was great to get onto the site and see her check's net as more than our house payment! PTL!
Well, ya'll, I'm in some SERIOUS need of rest. I'll talk with ya later. Have a wonderful day if'n I'm not back on here!
T
